05/12/2008 BUTTERWORTH TRIP!

haha...today was so funny...although i was so sleepy coz i totally cant sleep whole night..lolx.. but, wake at 10.30am in the morning! lolx...i was really damn sleepy!! go until ah yu house..how i know, it was no body at there guk! i am the first who reach at there!! shit!! after that only get know by ah yu...they most like to tu d eh...so she only tiao ti say 12pm...what the...but almost 2pm only start our butterworth trip!! damn sleepy lah..lolx...but, it was so excited...the feeling just like we already big d...hahaha...we can take car from penang to butterworth d...mygod!! but...it happen something when we are on the way go to butterworth...szeruey car get bang by one big lorry!! leh...that stupid suckxz indian guy say is our wrong...keep on duwan give back us money!! and call us go report police...he guk scold us!! what theee!! shit all indian!! stupid!! wu liao!! lolx!! after that. ruey dad say nuhneed argue d...then only stop the arguying...lolx! so yuan wany..the car...aikxz...but nvm lah..not mine eh..hehe...after that, we continue our journey!! hee....we lost again...go until pacific...lolx...then only turn go a new shopping mall...EON JUSCO SHOPPING MALL...there quite nice lerh...can fight with gurney and queensbay d...haizz...why it not at penang lerh?? lolx...we just reach at there, toh go walk walk d...after that, we decide to have a japaness food...then, we go SHUSHI QUEEN...hahaha....the food quite nice larh...so damn full...and, the place so romantic...hehe...bii..i want go with u lah...lolx..after that, we walk walk again...then go to a place like cyc eh to play...haha..we play car, and gun...and also skating!! mygod! so high! haha...after that, we saperate again...lolx...then me, TING TING!! and ochien went to take pic at saseme street...ahahaha....lolx...i am so handsome when taking pic...mygod!! hehe....we spend many time at there...then ahyu them find us...haha...only we went to chicken rice shop there find them...lolx...after that, we toh continue our journey again d...now went to AUTO CITY!! wahaha....when we wana back from eon shoppng mall, we take a pic in carpark...lolx..the pic really got those things lah..so terible...lolx...but, duwan luan gap first..hope it is not a true...hmm...ok...then continue again....we went to AUTO CITY now! ahaha...there is so beautiful at night! i still remember when we find a place to park, our car get chase by those stupid dog know?? wahahaha...siao eh...then after that, we go ice ice baby and eat..9pm, me, ting ting, milline and michelle toh go back first d...coz ting ting will get scold by mummy...and the stupid milline dunoe wana go back do what hiao things...and me, dunoe...just duwan late back...so, we oun back d...nah...the funny story is start now! the night was so dark...cant see properly the road...in the car, we chat many...we tell many story when we are small...get bit by daddy lah...slap by daddy lah...many many....ting ting guk somemore say till like wana cry aneh...haizz...ting ting...i sayang u!! dont cry! hee.....and when the time we chat....nah...milline say...eh, penang not need to use left hand side eh road eh meh?? ......... but our car are already pass the road to BUTTERWORTH!! again!! areghh!! we almost spend rm 9.20 to went out from butterworth to penang!! walau!!i still remember...we guk go until bukit tambun!! walau eh...we really big d!! hahaha....aneh pun can....that is really a good and sweet memory in our life when we are still young!! ahahaha!! friends!! i love u much alots!! hehe....then after that, only we reach home each other...hochai, ting ting and michelle din get scold or something....god bless us! i wont even forgot this day!! hahaha! friends, sure will be continue next time again...hiak hiak hiak!

毕业

毕业了...这一天,真的来了...
在那一天,我才真正了解到...什么叫真正的分离...
哈...五年了...它,竟然走得那么快....当我才学会了如何珍惜...我们又要从美梦中醒来了....
时间先生,你知道我有多恨你吗??
我恨你为什么可以这么厉害...人家都需要在你的控制之下...
我们都需要跟着你的脚步走....一旦你快..我们也需要快!!
而你,根本不会体谅我们...而把脚步放慢!!
你只会越走越快!!
你根本就不懂!! 我,根本不想和他们分开!!!
我根本就不想毕业!!!!!
你到底懂不懂??!!!

那一天晚上的谢师宴...
我们都很疯狂....我们是发泄了...把所有的不舍都喊了出来!!
那一夜让我们都毕生难忘....有笑,但..我们还是哭了....
哭出了所有不舍得的感觉....
如果时间真的容许的话...我会用我所有的时间...
再一次...好好的,珍惜你们....
一群陪我度过很多很多的朋友....
一群给了我很多很多的朋友....
只有你们,我才知道...原来,笑容是可以这样纯真...

时间叔叔!
你真的要这样残忍吗??
可以让时间倒流吗??我真的不想长大....
不想一个人...以后要面对那我一点都不了解的世界!!
我只想永远陪在朋友身边....
一起疯狂,白痴,无聊,搞笑................
我只想要永远是龙帮的会员!!
可以吗???

可是,时间他不可能再回头...
我们,只能往前看!
往我们的人生目标..努力的前进...
而往往...时间最好的...就是留下了...
那属于我们的快了回忆...

最后,朋友们...再见了...
我们一定还会聚在一起....我保证!!
加油!! 我爱你们!!!

I duwan GRADUAT!!!

Suddenly,i feel so sad..haiz...i am going to graduat...
just left 16 days..we are going to grduat....
after 33 days, we are going to take our spm...
54 days later, we will be really cant meet at P5A anymore...
FRIENDS! i will damn miss you all...haizz...
if time can stop at there, if time can return to last time,
i hope the time wont even run anymore...can i duwan graduat??
i will miss alots...all the memory!!

When we form 4...
the game we play....pin!! my dad! siew siew!! my mama!!
haha...von and aijia...my first wife and second wife...
shan hui! my brother!! evelyn, my da shao!!
jac and laushingyee!! my pretty daughter!!
yeemin and chingying!! two cutie girl in our class....
many many...
our laugh...our crazy...our happiness!!
i wont even forgot!!

and out class party!! haha....
the water baloon...
the mi hun!! walau!!
thats really my sweet memory leh!!
P4A and p5A!! watchout!! i wont even forgot about you!!
haizz....why??
why time always run so fast??
i dowan lah!!

see...when the time i meet with her..
also is the same!!!gerr!!
just now just meet for 15minute nia lah...lolx!
pek chek eh lah!!
please!! mr clock!!
walk slowly can?? gerr!!

anyway!!
hope all my friends have a good bright feuture!!
miss ya!! muackxz!!
bye!!

steamboat!

27/9/2008

hee..i wait for today damn long d...i will go to gp today...and at night, got a steamboat party at my ama house...yes!! finally, that day reach!!
ai-jia come fetch me at about 12pm like that, then we together go siew hui house...really damn long...waiting for siew hui bath and waiting that sasa come...lolx...then, about 1pm only go out from siew hui house....lolx...i damn sleepy..coz, i wake up at 8.35am in the morning...but, after reach gp..haha...i wake..lolx...we walk around...when i go FOS...hehe...my bii come find me....yes! finally saw her...lolx! then we mah walk loh...then go kim gary eat...lolx..i know that she not feeling well there with my friends..so, i pun call her go walk with agnes loh...actly leh hor..i wana walk with u eh loh!! haizz.suan le..next time ba....

and at night...walau...damn high..hahaha!! and at that night, i know a bg secreat...omg!!!! ahahhaahaha!!! shhhhhhh.....and we play many...that take photo eh..walau!! haha..damn funny!! sasa!! u better fast fast uplode that pic for me!! hahaha!!! long bang!! i love u!!! heee...going crazy...but at that night..i din eat that much loh...i just eat one bowl...dunoe why lah...many ppl time, i toh si cannot eat eh..coz, i just wana play....we play motor...er...evelyn, sorry...haha..peng...lolx...and bii, i not dare d lah next time..lolx...learn d only drive.haha...scare....lolx! they back early leh..haizz...boh siok eh...=/ that day turn memory again.........haizz.....

Can all the bad stop??!!

i dunoe when still can i stand anymore...
i feel suffer. really!!

stop the rumous, stop the case about maths paper!!
all stop!!!!!!

i just wana continue my life silencely!!
just only 2month...can u all dont so childish??!!

HAPPY!! haizz....HOW??!!

15/9/2008 =)

It was a happy day...the first time in my life...it was full of memory, sweetness,feeling full...
since that day, i'll promiss u, forever stay beside u..and just comfort u,care u and love u..=)
Thanks that giving me a chance...and try to colourfull our journey together...

16/9/2008 =(

Aikxz!! i think that teacher is suspect me with the reason copy ppl answer d...haizz....how wor??i am so scare now...is not any other things...but Juanna...i din mean to hai4 u de...sorry...dont worry...how also, i will just tell the teaher, is me that copy urs...u dont even know all...hmm...i wont let u get demerit for even 1 marks de...sorry...hmm

Anythings bad just gone like that, after i meet her..lolx...
but, the time we together is damn short..haizz...is just about 20 minutes..aikxz...
i just hope that my exam will pass early...i wana go out with u...haiz....
at last, i miss u! =/ klah...going to sleep d...for let the time past faster...waiting u back from scl..=)

The day that i wont ever forgot!

13/9/2008
This is the day that i wont ever fotget it on my life time!!
the moment that we together..
with the romantic place..with the romantic small rain that say by your friends..=)
I hold ur hand..u hold my hand...
i can feel the warm that we giving to each other...
it's just sweet that can be say...

We talk many many...
the feeling for me is natural...ntg fake, ntg unwell...
u make me crazy...the heart is jump till so fast...
but u let me know, i just need to be myself infront u...
and i done it...

today is the day before moon cake festival..
the moon is round, and so us...
the time let us stick together...
and for me, i am already cant stop thinking about u,
and loving u...

Although it was a short time that given by god to us...
but it is so sweet at the last minute...
i can feel it...the love between us is burning...
and the connection have been start...
I love you. =)

Life change ...

Today, i realize that my life is changing...keep on changing..there was just happy..really happy..and dunoe since when, she is already stay in my heart. she make me smile..she make me happy...when i need her, she will just stay beside me...

Is it i am bad?? i dunoe how will be going on to us...and sometimes, i am getting suspect the relationship between us...i dunoe what should i do..i am sorry...i know i should not think about that...and now, i am really hopping that u will know...how much spending my life with you, really means to me...

I know that i am hurting u just now...i should not really ask u that..
anyway, i am really appreciate..that's god to let me know u...at last, i love u..

You are sleepping now,hmm..would u dream about me, or know that i am missing u now?? i hope that we will meet tonight..miss ya! good night!! =)

hana hana...update!!

nah...update my blog d...
going crazy d...gerr

today, is the third day of my trial exam!!
opps!! account totally dunoe how to do!! leh...

shit miss pao catch me!!
fuck her!! gerr!!

ntg write d..
aijia...this count update d lah hor??
night...hee

telling true...i hate my life now!!! gerr

HUA!!! exam exam exam!!
when only i can enjoy??lolx...sien lah!!!
uncolourfull life!!
see...blog also cant always update!! gerr!!!

hmm...i got something to say...
this few days in my life...hee..happy loh...
yaya! my drama competition at 16 august!!
we get .... second price lah...
haizz....ok d luh...but we all expect is first price eh loh! =/
but we already try our best d lah...hee....
thanks ah pin loh!!! hmmm.....

19 august, i went to gp...melisa birthday mah...hmm
go redbox loh...haha...melisa pay loh...hee
then after that go kimgary...meet that stupid...haha
so full...long time din go out d...hua!!
at night, i guk go out with jeff, chee sean, ochien, xuan ling, ah cheng loh!!
we eat and chat at northam beach cafe!!
alolx...chee sean and xuan ling ah...tsk tsk tsk!
anyway, i support u lah chee sean...hee

okay...that day finish d...
continue, my life just can be STUDY STUDY and STUDY!!
lolx!!! jia hao yue yuan also cnt continue d!!!
gerr!!! guk got tian yan mi yu!!!
when only can i watch??!!

TVB drama!! i miss u!! lolx...

okay...and now, got something to tell that stupid loh
take good care of urself i tell u!!
tt sick!! hua!! angry d lah...
later guk say me din sayang u!
i got mah....but u also must take good care of urself lah!
know??and dun tt late sleep d lah...
no good eh mah...lolx...
nuh need coz just wana pei me...
understand???!!!
hmm..klah..thats all that i want to tell u...=)

klah...wana back d lah...
mum going to siew hui house fetch me d...
cannot online d loh....=/
good bye my friend! haizz.........

hahaha...FINALLY!!!

Hi everybody!!

miss my blog?? hmm...long time din see...no no...i think you all sure miss my blog...and, very worried that how my life going on this few days...right?? shan hui?? haha...joke lah...hmm



okay...FINALLY!! i can online d...but, haizz... is not at my own house!! but, is at siew hui house!!i am so fedup with my mum!! she totally din give any freedom for me...i cant even online or, watching TVB drama at home!! aikxzz!! what a SUCKXZ LIFE before SPM!! gerrr!!! but nevermind...as she said:" remember, you can fly after SPM! " ya!! i agree that!! hmm...i can shout for sure!! i will fly!! hee =) and, can i take my car and fetch you that time?? lolx...



and now, lets look about what going on in my life between this 12 days!! hmm...First, i hope to say about my BIRTHDAY!! hmm hmm hmm.....what going on when my birthday?? haha...ofcoz, my friends are accompany me whole day...haha...i just thought that no one will wish me..lolx...ho chai...i recieve many birthday wish..haha...it was soooo GOOD!! hmm...thanks lots ya my lovely friends!!! hee....Michelle, Milline, Monica was giving me a birthday song at canteen...haha...so touch...lolx...but, that seem like the last year of my birthday with all of you...would it happen again next year?? after the graduat?? haizz.... i hope so...hmm...HAHAHA...guess that at night, where we go?? hmm...they are celebrat with me at SUNSHINE FARLIM MCD!! lolx...so childish and lame!! after giving my wish from the little CAKE, haha...we go for playing zuo mi chang at sunshine farlim hypermarket!! lolx..that stupid yue yu and michelle are the loser!! hahaha...thanks ya!! for giving me a unforgotable birthday party!! hee...muackxz...



the next day...omg!! we need to go for chai pai of our drama again...hmm..i wake up at the early morning...hiak hiak...the most interest part...i went to ah yu house!!! BBQ!! lolx...telling true!! i like to cook loh...i mean BBQ!! haha....so, anyone who want to having a BBQ party next time, invite me ba..sure i will help you all to cook...hee...but, i went back early that day...haizz..if i got car, i sure nuh need care about my mum time!! hng!! but, is okay to0 lah..coz, i need to wake up earl in the morning like 6am tomorrow for our DRAMA first competition!!! omg!! so tired..they want us do zao3 chao1 know?? siao eh...want me wake up so early and just for-----zao3 chao1!!! gerr!! anyway...i am sooo damnnn happy!! guess why?? haha...coz our team----- MALEMANANA get into the FINAL COMPETITION at AUGUST 16!!! hahaha.....so excited!! lolx...mummy, grandma, come to support me ya...=) erm erm...and also her...hope she can come...lolx...hee



okay...lets jump to august 8 ba!! haha...what the day?? yes...OLYMPIC!!! omg!! I LOVE CHINA!! how come they can so YENG??!! keat!! HUA REN WAN SUI!!! hahaha!!!! for looking how CHINA getting their HISTORY, we went to NASI KANDAR SALAM at farlim there....for COUNT DOWN!! haha...see..we are so cute is it?? so damn special..haha....anyway, i just wana tell that, I LOVE CHINA!! hmmm....



abd now, august 9, MERENTAS DESA !!! lolx...damn tired that day...i was wake up damn early in the morning and sleep damn lately at yesterday night...about 1am...lolx...but, i was so excited..coz, i am really damn long time din climb the hill d...really!! hmm...i am sweating!! feeling so fresh after that!! haha....okay, after that, i went to gurney plaza with yvonne and milline...hmm hmm..we sit at coffee bean for 2 hour like that...and for waiting our movie-----MEET DAVE!! after that, ching ying and jac jac come...when the time walk until 2.20pm, jac jac also back..than, we continue to our next destination...CINEMA!! hmm...



the most angry things come d!! we was watching the movie for just 15 minute and some more maybe...guess what happen??ching ying recieve siew hui msg...she say that if we din go for chai pai..then we need to be disqualified!! what the fuck??!! haizz...nevermind loh...is our respontibility mah..so, we also when back by TAXI loh!! how we know...go until scl, din have any chai pai...and just go like that!! wah!! our meet dave for rm 10 and also taxi for rm 8!! lolx....bu, ahpin, i din angry u lah...really...i most love u d..i know u sure got ur reason for cant come to the drama eh...hmm...dont be nei jiu kayy?? i love u!! =)



and today, august 12...i stay back again...for the drama practics loh...hmm..damn tired!!but then, i am so happy...coz, i finally can update my blog d...althought is at siew hui house lah...hee...



klah...going to back d...guys...see tomorrow ya..tatarx!

is it a lonely Birthday??

i feel somethings weird now aday...

din have any feeling anymore...

fedup, angry, sad, feeling stupid...

it all gone since yesterday night...

yap. i promiss that not to cry..

and even now, i din drop before one tear...

i promiss myself...it will just be pass away...

and also her...

all about that, will just gone like that...

i wont angry, wont sad..wont have any feeling anymore....

i would really try my very best...

forgive all about that...

and maybe...that just came from my stupidness!

is ok..i tell myself...

it will be alright without any love staff...

everythings will be okayy...

just forgot that i need to face...

is my birthday ...

is just left one hour...

will anybody wish me??

i dont know...suddenly, i feel lonely...

is really lonely...

i din have this feeling before...

and why??

telling true...

i am so scare...scare about no one will wish me...

scare about no one will celebrate with me...

what will my friends going to give me??

would any surprice there??

i dont know...

and i just hope...

it will e a very wonderful day tomorrow!!!

and just because, my birthday!!! =)

失望！！！

哈！ 我好笨。。。足足笨了五个多月！！
好笑吧？？应该吧。。。笑吧。。。我也忍不住笑了。。。
笑我自己的愚蠢。。白目！！无聊！！多余！！
所做的一切，都好笑到不行！！

算了，至少，早一点知道。。。
对我来说，才是好事！！
因为，终于可以停止那种被你玩弄的感觉！！
我伤心吗？？
我告诉你，我一点都没有！！
失望？？对！我失望了！！
失望为什么我会有这样的朋友！！
我答应过自己！！绝对不会为了你再一次，掉眼泪！！
因为，你不是谁！！谁都不是！！

我会让我自己更坚强！！
不会再伤害自己！！不会在伤心。。。
做回自己！！
对，说到来，我还应该谢谢你。。。
让我清醒！！！
谢谢！！！

start preparing....lolx

start study...

start to stop my beautiful life...

hmm...so boring...

nothing can say...

ok, just like that ba....work hard!

study hard!!

SPM!!!!

yaya....go for viewing this link...

what a nice video there...hmm

i love that song!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VyCRKwEMqYw

kayy...good night everybody! bye~

Aijia House, Quensbay

ahax...i wake up early yesterday morning!

argue with my mum! gerr...she duwan go fetch my friend! just use the big road wad...lolx...change some idiot tiao jian with her...for not online anymore...lolx!!study study study!! haizz....(now are online-ing..while..my mum are in sleep...)=

and also my dad...for the new hp...hmm...it is also ..study study study!! omg!!

after fetch yvonne...ahax...we reach aijia house...

aijia is so omg! her style are so cute when she was coming to fetch us at bee chin heoh!! hahaha

we eat at pasar there...i bought chee ciong fun...lolx...so dilicious...haha...

after that, meetoto!! hahaha!!is a nice game man!! lolx!!and here the pic...=)

after that, we are going to QUENSBAY mall!!

see..we are taking pic with the clown!!! he is so tall!! lolx

and KUNG FU HIP HOP!!! what a damn nice movie man!!! GENG!!

see..yeng not?? hahaha

after that, we going for sticker photo!!!

we are all sweating there..lolx...that melisa loh..hahaha

i like all about that sticker pic..=)

after that, we are taking bus and back to aijia house again...

lets see...while, in the bus..

hee..the last pic...before we wana leave aijia house..=/ while...waiting melisa daddy...

okayy...end here...hee..bye!!

Drama~

Is so moody today..arghh...sien!!

I went back home,then,take something i promiss to rumin...

waste my rm 10 for sapu!! arghh...

is so nervous...i promiss her will accompany her when her recess...

but, i can't...she wont angry me lah i think...hmm

drama practics today again...hmm..finally, we learn all...

august 3 is the day!! Drama competiton...

hope all of us will well done....=)

tomorrow is hagging out!! haha...

so excited...hmm...so, go oink oink first...

good night everybody!

是时候，该从梦中醒来了。。。

自从她出现在我心里之后，
她已经慢慢的，成为我快乐的理由。。。

承认我真的好爱她。。很想自私的，想将她占有。。
是我的胆小，我的没信心，让我一次又一次的，失去你。。。
很想试，努力的，问你一句，
“你的幸福，可以和我有关系吗？？我，可以在你身边吗？？”
可是事实却告诉了我，其实，我需要把你忘记。。。
曾经想过，和你在一起的画面。。想过，一切美丽的梦。。。
可是，事实上，我却该要醒了。。。
从那不切实际的梦中醒过来。。。

或许，我真的很无聊。。。很矛盾。。
明明我懂，我不能再爱你。。。需要忘了你。。
可是在心里，我却又舍不得。。。
有过冲动，想要真正的去问你。。。
问一问那或许已经有了答案的问题。。。可是，
我却不敢这么做。。。
我懂我知道。。或许，我就是这样没用。。。
可是我真的很想改变。。。
就算是为了你。。。
可是为什么？我都无法办到？？

我太在乎你了。。真正在乎得，
连每走一步，我都很小心翼翼。。。
因为我怕，如果再蹋错一步，我会再次失去你。。。
我怕，和你在一起的最后几个月中，不能和你度过。。。
就因为这样。。或许命运中，已经有了安排。。。
我和你，或许就只有朋友的关系。。
而我，不管再甜的梦，我都需要醒过来。。。

Friends??

Hmm...i face a big troble things today...i am the first time that argue with my friend this year...erm..dunoe...i think not friend ba...i damn beh siok her...i dont think to argue...but why??she like keep on like wana fight aneh??is it she hate me or what?? i dunoe...but telling true...i really not so like her start that moment!! she is the one that make me look like lost my true friend!! dunoe is that they beh siok me..but until now, i dont think that i am wrong...although maybe i am so lazy to turn the fan and i call melisa for help..but, i dont think that she need to scold me like that! what the problem with her?? whats going on?? are she crazy?? and are she really be the king when she was moody??!! lolx..i am so fedup on this kind of stupid women!!

Now aday, like really unlucky aneh eh...haiz...argue with friend, thn, like let good friend misunderstood...what happen?? haizz...is that shit wu ya again??!! shit!! i dont know..but, i will let it go away...i wont think anymore...just hope that everything will be wonderful...erm...say sorry to that heng chen? i dunoe...but i really dont even like to see this kind of things happen in my body...coz, i hate those feeling...not let ppl beh siok..even beh siok ppl also...not feeling well!! and we are classmate!! lolx...and we are going to graduat!! haizz...i will try my best..maybe i am stupid..but, i really dont like to beh siok lai beh siok ki...hmm...

And she, yvonne leong! lolx...rampas my hp again...haizz...really want let me siao ki d...you dont even know what my feeling just now...lolx...you really make me so scare! lolx...i am not scare of anything..but that...i scare that when u saw something u dislike,than maybe,we cant be friend anymore...haizz...but how wor?? i not even dare to rampas it back from u...haizz...i know, i am useless...dont even know, what can i spread my feeling to...so, i choose to write in hp...anyway, i think u din saw it lah...hmm...but if u saw it..then,what ur feeling?? haizz...dont know...lolx...for now, cant even think anything!! lolx.. spm!! hmm...

klah...sleepy d...like, really want sick d..goodnight ba everyone...

不想你哭～

有些人，他们或许都不懂，其实每个人的生命里，一定会住着属于他们自己认为最重要的人。。而她，就是那位让我爱上之后，就直接搬进我心里，不管怎么赶，都赶不走。。。就算她没交租金也好，她都有一种很强大的力量，把我弄到，不忍心，让她就这样搬走。。。

或许，这就叫爱，而我，就是那位一直死守着这永远不可能的爱情死穴里的笨蛋。。只有她，让我无法不爱上她。。只有她，才让我懂得。。。其实，喜欢着她，才是幸福的。。。

是她，让我懂得。。就算不值得。。就算不应该。。可是只要是因为她。。。就算哭，就算痛，都无所谓。。。因为是她让我知道，其实，我的心里，已经学会如何去深爱一个人了。。。

也只有她，让我懂得，原来，泪水，它，其实并不珍贵。。。因为只要是为她而留，那都是美丽的。。。

你们有听过一个故事吗？？

里面，它诉说着一对男女，他们都无法见面，无法在一起。。因为，他们来自一个不同的世界。。

那位女生，她很美，很迷人。。她拥有着一些独特的优点，很天真，很可爱。。而她拥有的，都是那位男生所没有的。。。而那为男生，不管再怎么努力，永远，都给不到那女孩想要的东西。。。可是，那个男孩，不管再苦，他都没有放弃。。他心里想的，就是要一直看到那女生的笑脸。。因为她说，就只有她，才会让他忘记所有的烦恼。。。

而有一天，在偶然的机会下，他们见面了。。。而相遇的地点，却是，教堂里。。那位男生，他笑得很美，很开心。。。因为，这是第一次，那女孩跟他说了第一句话。。。

“谢谢你！ 如果不是你，我就再也看不到那美丽的世界了！！”

那男孩想要回答。。。可惜，她并听不到他的声音了。。。

此外，这也是第一次，那男孩真正为他喜欢的人做了一件，他认为值得的事。。或许有可能，他们不能再见面。。可是在他心里。。。他觉得，真的很甜。。很甜。。。

可是他哭了，要离开的前一秒，他开心得哭了。。。或许对他来说，就只是一点点，他就足够了。。。因为对他来说，只要是为了他心爱的人，什么都值得了。。。

或许这个故事很凄凉。。。它没有完美的结局。。。但是，它却让我懂得，其实，其实我真正想要的，并不是什么，而是，她的笑容。。。

如果可以，我愿意给她全部。。全部不可能的东西。。。为的或许只能换她一个笑容。。。但是，只要她笑，什么都好了。。。

今天，她哭了。。。哭得让我觉得很心疼。。。很无助。。。我能做的，就只是给她一些没有用的安慰。。。却不是一个深情的拥抱。。。很努力的，想要弄她笑回。。。很努力的在祈祷。。希望她不会被剪头发。。。可是我什么都做不到。。。什么都失败。。最后，就只能坐在那边。。看着她，留下那一滴滴。。让人心疼的眼泪。。。

是我没用吗？？连肩膀，都没有能力借给你。。。只能说爱你，可是，却一点都不能为你做什么。。。对不起。。。答应我，不要再哭了好吗？？不要再让我觉得没用。。。让我好过点。。。至少，给我一点笑脸，那，或许，我才会觉得。。。在你心里，至少还有我，这位朋友。。。

RED bOX ,SeGA, seCrEat Recipi !!

Yesterday, I feel damn happy!! althought something make me not so happy at the morning!! but after that,when me,milline,evelyn went to GURNEY PLAZA!! wahahaha!! all the sadness, it seem like gone away at that crazy moment!!


we take alots alots of pic that day!! all my kiap face!! lolx....after taking our lunch at wong kok ,then singging at redbox for 3 hours ,then we went to SEGA!! for talking nonson, playing crazyly, capture kiap-ingly!! and...saw something geli there!! wahahahahaha!! lets see...

wong kok!

red box!

when we are mou liu...lolx

continue by that,

SEGA time!! talk, capture,play,yaya...we saw a stupid guy...that din wear pantise..we not diao di eh...but...we toh si saw his big testis...OMG!! ahahaha!!and now, let see our cutie face ba...hahaha

CUTE?? haha.. i know i cute! alamak..haha

kiap !! haha

oh my GOD! lolx

alamak la lolx...

MILLINE!! siao liao ..haha

this is me...bak bin..hahaha

i want eat evelyn! haha

nah..i am pig...pig am i..haha

tolong!! cacat face! hahaha

wow..i am so big!!



and now...secreat recipi! our dinner there...=)

yummy~

i hope to eat her things...while mine..is not yet come...=/
sure..she wont give..lolx

and here..is the HIAO bin of KOAY CHIAN CHING!!

walalala...with a 贵妇 style!!ahaha

still alots of pic...wait ba..i will uplode when milline give me those pic! hmm..=)

i love those life! play with friends! laught loudly!! nothing sadness!! nothing stress!!just happy!!

just hope that i will change like that...if one day...i really put her down......

我还很爱她

昨天和今天的心情都很糟。。遭到很糟。。。在班里，我根本没有心情。。超压力的。。到底怎么了？连我自己，也不知道问题到底出现在那里。。。到底，我是因为考试而烦，还是她？？是她把我弄到这样烦吗？？

昨天，第一节第二节是英文节。。。他们都在讲melisa。。哈哈！老师很怕她。。以为她真的很奇怪。。。我也被陷害。。。他们跟老师说，我喜欢 jeff! 还跟他一起看色情片！！lolx。。我就这样，让老师误会了 loh。。老师还叫我 miss jeff loh!! lolx!! 过后几节，我超爱睡的。。。所以心情也跟着变闷闷的。。haizz...休息节，我没有去吃。。呆在班里。。和她一起。。。她看我的钱包。。哇！里面有一张纸。。。还好，我来得及去阻止。。如果她看了，她会是什么反应呢？？跟她争了很久。。过后，我把纸丢下楼了。。。她生气我。。那时，我很委屈。。。不可以给她看。。可是，心里，却很想给她看。。真的很想告诉她。。其实很爱她。。。可是，我却不能这样做。。。她，只能是朋友。。很遥远，很遥远的朋友。。。她会懂吗？？她会来读我的部落格吗？？如果有，我只能说抱歉，真的很抱歉。。。到现在，我的心，还不能让你离开。。。

每天，脑海里，都会反复出现你的影子。。你的笑容，你那可爱又稚气的脸。。你的一举一动自然而然的，已经成为我想要去注意的一种习惯。。想要了解你。。想要和你玩。。和你讲话。。。这些，都已经成为我能够一大早爬起来的动力。。。你让我不知所措。。。生活里的点点滴滴就这样，轻易的让你占据了。。想念你的心更不直觉的，比想念我爸的心还要多。。疼爱你的心，更是自然的让我从心里表露出来。。。想保护你。。让你开心。。。这些东西，也渐渐的成为我的功课之一。。。不想爱。。可是却不知道。。其实原来自己已经把你爱得好深好深了。。。想要努力的把你忘记。。。真的。。可是却怎么努力，都无法抗拒。。。

就因为你的一句话。。。也足以能够让我不开心一怎天。。。你说，你有男朋友了。。。是真的吗？？我不知道。。。可是，如果有了，我还能怎样呢？？一直想。。。那时的我，心一定会很痛！很痛！。。可是想想。。。痛过后，又能怎样呢？？我不是一直都很想你得到属于你自己的幸福吗？？或许我能做的。。。就只有守护你而已了。。。

可是为什么？想了之后，心里还是不舍得呢？？不想放弃。。。想要真正努力的去争取。。就算失败。。我也甘心。。可是为什么。。。我连去争取的勇气都没有呢？？为什么？？为什么你总是能够让我崩溃？？让我变得不是我？？难道每次我真正爱一个人的时候。。都会是伤心的收场呢？？难道，我连去爱一个人的资格都没有吗？？

对不起了，我的朋友们。。我又再次的，没有实现我的承诺了。。。心情不好，就脸黑黑。。。有时还发脾气。。对不起！！真的很对不起！！就拿今天来讲吧。。。我的心情跟本就糟透了。。。甚至要崩溃到哭。。。讲话又大声。。。我不是故意的。。我也不知道为什么自己会变到这样。。。真的很抱歉！

还好，今天，跟 michelle teo 他们 stay 了。。drama 吗。。。那时候，心情才慢慢变好。。。或许，我真的需要他们陪我疯，我才会好过点吧。。。

我又拍了很多照片。。。改次再放上来吧。。好了。。我要去发泄了。。打篮球！！＝〕bye!!

闷 ！ 闷 ！ 闷 ！

林贞冰！！你又没来学校了！！你到底一年里要缺席几天啊？？你又到底懂不懂？你没有来，我会很闷的啊？？讨厌 lor!！你的请假信还没用完 merh?？ 为什么你可以一直不来？？以后不要了啦。。或许你是生病或是很累吧。。。可是讲真的，你没有来，我真的很闷！evelyn 他们又一直讲 camp 的东西！！我根本就听不懂！！arghh!!! 如果你来，至少，不会那么闷啊。。。因为只要有你在，一切都好了。。。！你明天再不来看！hng！！

今天，除了闷以外，没有一个字可以形容了！！第一节是科学节。。没有得去 sn lab。。在班，所以不用说，我也没有心听课了。。。lolx。。。第二节！英文节！！wah lao!!更闷！！所以，我又在我的 note book 里，写一些无聊的东西 lo...不用说，一定是关于她。。。haizz。。。而第三节的体育节，我们也待在班里。。。老师没有上课。。。如果林贞冰你有来的话，我就不用那么闷了！！又没得和她讲话。。。哇！！今天，真的真的很不爽！！接下来，又是 IT 节 wor!! 在冷气室里。。要睡去了啦。。。可是还没做完 IT ring file 的东西。。所以，又没得去吃东西。。可是，我本来就打算不吃了啦。。。所以，很快的，就敢完了。。可是 CD 又不能 burn wor!! lolx! 不管它了啦。。。反正 pn pin 也还没做啊。。hee。。

之后华语节。。。我坐在恒甄的位。。超爽的。因为，冷！hmm。。。讲真的，其实，我还满喜欢华语节的。。。可是，老师努力要教好我们。。可是。。。haizz。。。
数学节的时候，老师教第九课啦。。我根本就不懂！！arghh!! 数学老师越来越难相处！越来越不喜欢她了。。。lolx。。。

最后两节是国语节！！他妈的！她留我们堂！！不给我们放学！！她是不知道我今天没有stay 是吗？？我的巴士要走了她懂吗？？lolx!!害我要跑出去！！累的lo!! lolx!!!讨厌你啦！！精茵的部落格。。一定会写你！臭老师！！hng！！

好了。。。今天大概就只有这样。。大家，晚安 lo!! =)

很累，很压力，不好过，生活，它，可以更有价值一点吗？？haizz。。。

他妈的！ 今天一大早，就被骂了。。。lolx!

因为microsoft acess! 我真的搞不懂！为什么我会拿 IT!! 很压力！！

我根本不属于那科的。。可是现在，讲什么都没用了。。。

死ah yap!! 她把我弄哭了啦。。。以为我不会哭的。。真没用！！

可是当时，我真的很委屈。。。我不知道她在讲什么。。。她又拼命叫我改！！

我现在真的发现到，我真的很笨！！每次都湖理糊涂的！！搞什么啊？？

到底几是？我才会醒啊？？一直发白日梦做么？？lolx!

可以让我的生活更有价值一点吗？？

今天又是彩排谢师宴！都不知道我能不能er。。。

不用紧lo 。。。我以为 class item 先的吗。。。那里知道，过后又讲是inter class 先！！

我根本就没有练习到。。。等下又要对嘴 wor。。。

一定会死到很惨！

真的lo。。我真的不知道我几时要讲话，几时要把铅笔弄断！！

wah!!根本就错到完。。。以后，真的要练习才能的。。。haizz。。

现在我真的很期待 drama lo!!

几是才有彩排？真的不可以last minute 了 loh。。。

要不然，会很难看的。。。而且，这次是比赛啦。。。hmmm。。。

休息节过后，他们又要去练习class item。。。

我不想一个人在班啊。。。我麻想出去loh。。可是，yvonne她又不给我出。。。

可能你怕我被扣分。。。可是，

我很难受你懂吗？？对啦。。我没有参加。。但，我也想帮忙阿。。。

对不起啦。。。又弄你生气了。。。

可是我不是故意的啊。。。我真的会很闷的。。如果我一个人在班。。。

haizz。。不要生气了啦。。。

今天也没什么上到课。。。除了 IT 和 MM 罢了。。。

也可以说，是一整天都忙在彩排。。。

所以很不爽！

我还是比较希望可以待在班里。。。

因为至少，和她，

可以讲话，可以笑，可以疯。。

haizz。。。

好了啦。。。要去读书了。。。

一定要拼了！！

加油 ， 郭芊岑！！＝〕

我，还想为她做些什么。。。因为是她～

好累哦！！昨晚我们去帮 jeff jeff庆祝生日哦！！ 啊哈哈！！他好可爱哦！超爱他的！我的妈啊！！lolx...可是昨天不是很好玩啦。。。milline 的姐姐喝醉酒！在那边发酒疯。。是有那么一点点扫兴啦。。。可是也不能这样讲啦。。因为毕竟，她失恋麻。。。好可怜哦。。我懂。。真的明白那种感受。。。埃。。我真的要戒酒了。。我真的不想我发酒疯的时候也是这样。。哇！真的好丑！！lolx!

过后，我们帮jeff切蛋糕。。。哈哈。。猜看他的蛋糕是怎样的？？是白雪公主的。。哈哈！！不知道是他生日还是我生日。。帮他许愿 （以后要跟芊岑结婚〕，还帮他切蛋糕！看！哈哈

他真的好委屈哦。。哈哈。。。不止哦。。我还强吻了他。。哈哈。。我想，他这次的生日一定很痛苦吧？哈哈哈对不起lo。。谁叫我酱爱你wor？？哈哈 之后我跟原川打snooker...怎么办？？我真的好象爱上snooker 了！超好玩的！！我的妈啊！！哈哈！！过后就回了。。＝（

真的好累。。。一回到家冲完凉就睡了。。

今天早上，真的很不想爬起来。。lolx一直吧时钟延迟5分钟。。可是过后，还是要爬起来！lolx!!
第一节是体育节。。。没有体育。。所以待在班。。。Ah pin,evelyn 他们一直讲他们去 camp 的东西。。。好闷！都不知道他们在讲什么。。。我想，她也很闷吧。。hmm...

过后，EST!我们被老师敢回来班。。因为我们太吵了。。lolx...
之后，华语节。。老师给我们猜字。。很难啦。。根本不知道是什么来的。。lolx...
在 acc 节的时候。。。她又教了新的一课。。。不错啦。。不会很难。。。hmm...

之后我又stay 哦。。。是因为 ah yap 啦。。。microsoft acess!! arghh!! 还没做完！怎么办？？lolx！！

过后，von 讲她没人载回。。。lolx...当然啦。。不管怎样，一定要她安全回到家啊。。所以，就答应了要陪她回家。。。所以大概4pm 这样，我陪她走去1 stop 那边。。她遇到了她的朋友。。是住同一区的。。所以，我也放心让她跟她的朋友回lo...之后我再去补习。。。因为是她吧，把我弄到有点白痴。。。让我不知道为什么，就想为她做一些傻事。。。如果
她没有遇到她的朋友。。我会怎样呢？？或许，我想，我应该，不会去补习了吧？？lolx。。。

之后，我就去补习了。。哈哈。。很无聊。。。所以，又拍照了。。真的很自恋啦。。哈哈！

还有那个我最爱的林贞冰！！哈哈哈！看她那白痴的脸！他妈的！超可爱啦！！我爱你！！

我真的会很珍惜你！！就只有你！！让我如此笑到暴！！林贞冰！！不准离开我！我告诉你！！

好了。。好累。。。应该没什么可以讲了。。去睡了。。。晚安lo个位！！muackxz! =)

希望～

今天是星期六。。以为可以睡到很迟才醒。。。
可是 mummy 说要带我去 Perlis - Kangga。。因为要拜拜。。说什么因为要 SPM 了。。
所以本来要去那个 camp 的，过后就不能去了。。埃。。。不能看到我的 jeff jeff!! Arghh!!
本来还以为等下要 SMS 他的！！因为他生日吗！可是电话又没有钱！！
哇！！怎么办？？不能 wish 他！！ Arghh!! 气死我了！！他妈的！！ lolx
不知道啦。。很伤心。。。因为他真的是我的好朋友啊！！
你们懂那种不能 wish 好朋友生日快乐的心情吗？？
不用紧，假假说最后一个才 wish 他，因为要做特别的一个。。。哈哈！
我不是爱他啦。。哈哈。。我是喜欢看他！！因为。。他，很帅！很可爱！！
我的天啊！！哈哈。。就快疯了！！

坐了三个小时的车，才到了我妈所谓的目的地 － 天一们！！

在那段又无聊又闷的时间里，我，自恋了起来。。哈哈

看！ 很自恋吧？？可是，我真的很帅啦。。。哈哈哈。。。＝P

过后，
到那边大概是十二点了。。。我们去吃了午餐，过后就去看命了。。。
也不算看命啦。。只是，求神保佑而已啦。。。
过后还有被师傅训话喔。。。

他说 。。。
我太不独立了。。。很依赖，而且很自卑。。。没有信心。。。
思想已超过 21 岁的人。。。因为，我想太多东西了。。。
家人的不关心，弄到我没有心读书。。。
他还讲我妈。。他说，我妈应该给我多一点关怀。。。
而不是给我压力一直讲我没用！
因为，我是属于吃软不吃硬的。。。
最后！他还讲，我需要留长头发。。然后运气才会更好！
哇。。。我那里可能会留？？就算留，我想，我会留中性发型吧。。 hmm
还有，他说，以后选科，
我需要选自己真的有兴趣的。。。
不可以跟朋友。。。很准啦。。。
我真的有打算跟 ahpin 他们读 form 6 的。。。
可是我真的没有兴趣啦。。。

现在，我想好了。。。
虽然我真的不是很会画画，
可是，我会努力学。。。因为，我已经决定要读那一科了。。。hmm
我妈也很支持我。。。真开心。。哈哈。。。

过后，六点才到槟城。。。
之后，我和我表弟去打篮球。。。哇！！
真爽！！我又运动了！哈哈！！
只希望，一切都会改变啦。。。
我会变瘦，我会变乖，我要会想。。。
为了我的前途。。。努力吧！！哈哈

好了。。。超累的。。。
进梦里，希望能遇见她吧。。。lolx...siao liao... =P
GoOd NigHt!! muackxz!

就这样，又过了一天。。。

象平常一样。。早早就去了学校。。
和贞冰他们去了食堂。。我吃了一豌云吞面和喝了一杯milo

进班之后，就是华语节了。。
老师给我们读了一篇小说。。。
<<一个少女的故事>>
里面讲说有一个二十一岁的少女，喜欢上一个很坏的姑爷仔
当她盲目的爱上她之后，她任然相信他是一位好人。。。
一个她认为他会为她改变的好人。。
可是她并不知道。。其实，她正爱着一个一直都在伤害她的男人！！
他对她所做的事，不只是身体上的伤害，
而是心灵上的伤害！！因为，她的第一次，尽是送给一个她不知道的人。。
而且，她更不懂，把她推向这种黑暗的，尽是她一直深爱着的男生！！
对于他的爱，她不后悔。。。
她甚至宁愿放弃家庭，也要跟那位她所谓的好男人一起！！
最后，连她爸，也因为她。。在一场车祸中去世了。。。

所以说，一个人，她能够为了爱。。不顾一切。。。
我，是这种人吗？？我不知道。。。可是，我绝对！
不会让自己这样。。。因为我会了解。。。
谁应该爱，谁不该爱！！
应该爱的那位，绝对不会让我这样！

所以，一些天真的女生！醒了吧！
记得！一定要好好保护自己啦！！hmm


接着，我知道一些很可恶的东西！！（抱歉，我不能讲是什么〕
可是，这话题里面的主角，一定会有报应的！！
他，让我朋友失去快乐！！他，让我朋友在这种年纪就要面对一些她不需要面对的压力！！
虽然我不认识他！！可是我告诉你！！你很没用！！你肯定是懦夫！！
我不管你怎样！！最好醒目点！！要是让我知道你再欺负我朋友！！
我肯定会插手！！一定会告你告到没有地方站！！
你到底有没有想过？？我知道我没有资格骂你。。因为我不是你的谁！
可是，我绝对有权利以一个有受过教育的那一边去指责你！！
就算再没用的人！都不应该这样做！！
何况他们是你的亲人！！他妈的！！气死我了！！ArgHHH!!!!
我告诉你！！我朋友没有欠你的！！
你生下她，你就有责任照顾她！！并不是伤害她！！
更不是做出这种事！！！你懂吗？？！！
现在你弄到我朋友这样！！你是要怎样？？！！
Arghhhhhh!!! pek chek!! 算了！！不管怎样！！
我都会保护我的朋友。。虽然目前为止，我不懂要怎样做，
才算可以帮得上忙。。可是在精神上，我一定会全力支持！！hmm...

接着，sa sa 姐终于承认了她。。。。哈哈
埃。。。或许是一件惨痛的事吧。。因为，她不会得到一个她想要的结果。。
跟我很象吧？？lolx。。。
或许有时，爱一个人，并不能拥有。。。
爱情不能勉强。。。所以 sa sa。。加油！
乘还没有那么深的时候，快点放开吧。。。要不然。。
到了某种地步。。。忘记，它会很难，很难！hmm...

我今天又留校了。。。
可是今天还算有目的啦。。。因为 IT 啦。。。visual basic。。
做完了lo...超爽的！！可是，ascess 还没有做完！！arghhh....
惨了。。一定给 ah yap cheng 的！！
算了啦。。。不管了。。反正，给她骂习惯了啦。。。hmm...

过后，我们去了stadium。。他们练舞。。。
超好笑的。。。可是，我没有说和他们疯。。。
因为，当时我的胃很痛。。。而且又很爱睡。。。

过后就没什么特别了。。。我们就直接回家了。。。
就这样，我又浪费了一天了。。。
而SPM 又接近一天了。。。埃！

好了，累了。。。晚安！！

又增加了吗？？

今天可以说一切正常吧。。。没有特别开心，也没有特别不开心。。。
早上，我和凯娴去7-11。。她喉咙不舒服，又感冒。。所以要买润候糖。。。
哈哈！ 猜我看到了什么？？是 TVB 周刊的杂志！第570期！！
是<<法政先锋 II>> 的封面loh!! wahahaha!! 超开心的！！
佘寺曼超美的！！还有欧阳震华跟郑嘉颍！！！超帅的！！
arghhh！！超爱他们的！！我的天啊！＝〕

过后，我去食堂吃东西。。因为休息节我不能吃了。。
喝了一杯 milo 和吃了一个面包。。很满足。。。因为毕竟我要减肥啊！！哈哈！
今天我很少流汉。。。因为天气超爽的！！下雨！！又刮大风！！我超爱这种天气的。。lolx
对，今天是有史以来，上英文节，我没有打瞌睡的。。因为，她讲的话题。。还瞒不错的。。＝〕
过后就是科学节。。我们做了 Latex experiment。。。跟你讲 loh。。。
那个橡胶的味道。。真的很恶心。。很尿味的感觉。。lolx。。
可是还不错啦。。这个实验很容易做。。哈哈

Account 节老师给我们考试。。哈哈！！
我会做了哦！！超开心的！！我的天啊！！lolx
可以说，这个老师很好啦！她很努力的，在教我们。。。想要我们好。。
当然，我是不可能会去辜负她的啦。。可能我还不是很好。。。
可是我答应，我会努力！！把SPM 考好来的！！hmm！！！

我今天又stay 了。。。因为她吧？？
我又想和她在一起久一点了。。白痴病又犯了！！
可以回家休息的。。不需要留下来。。。可是，我又。。一次又一次的。。。。
到底要怎样？要怎样我才会不爱她？？
她几时才会离开我的心？？几时我才能完完全全把她忘记？？haizzz。。
为什么你总在我身边？？lolx。。。

我们去了e class room。。。
我们要burn cd 然后去篇 class item 的舞蹈。。。
遇到pn ong! 她叫我改那个s 13 。。。我改 lo。。。
在那边，我和她，又玩了起来。。。lolx 。。。连 ahpin 都讲她看得出。。。
她说，在那段时间里，我对她的爱，或许，又增加了。。。haizz！ 我很犯贱 loh!！
自己也不知道自己其实要的是什么！！lolx!！

我在 e class room 偷了两块 CD loh。。哈哈！sui larh。。。
可是那个 CD 是 rewritable 的 lo。。。对不起啦老师！哈哈
过后，我们就去AVA room 了。。。
他们又再跳舞了！！哈哈！！很爱她们 lo。。。哈哈！！
为什么他们可以这样放得开的？？lolx。。。
好期待谢师宴当天 lo。。
可是，我真的很不想毕业啦！！
我一定会很想念你们的loh! 怎么办？？!！haiz。。。

不管怎样，我一定一定不会忘记这段即灿烂又美丽的回忆的！！
我答应，我会永远爱你们！！＝〕
晚安 lo 大家！！

我应该学会什么叫珍惜了。。

昨天，发生了一件我从来没有发生过的事情。。
休息节回来，我发现了我的小记事本里，写着我人生中对我来说很重要的人写给我的几行字。。
珊慧，以敏，evelyn ， 还有精茵。。。他们写下了他们对我的想法。。
看了之后，我的心超痛的。。可是另一方面，我明白，他们是为我好。。。

我知道，我很没用。。。对爱的看法很白痴。。。
一直以为，只有爱，才能生存。。可是却不知道，其实，除了爱。。我还有很多很多。。。
我有朋友，有家人，有学业。。。而不只是爱，不只是她！
我真的懂的。。。我会很努力，而且，我已经开始慢慢把她放了。。。
之前的，对不起。。是我太自私了。。我没有想太多。。。
以为，朋友不需要去关注。。不需要去想太多。。。对不起，我知道我错了。。
在接下来的日子里，我答应，我真的会试着去改变。。努力的改变！！
因为，你们对我来说，真的真的很重要！！我爱你们！！＝〕

今天，我留校。。因为要录音。。。
我答应过一个人，我会去找她。。。可是最后我没有去。。。
我想，我又错了。。。跟人家讲那种话。。可是心里想的却不是她。。。
不敢去找她。。因为，不想一错再错。。。
对不起。。。要你成为代替品，明明知道你的好，可是自己却放不开。。。
因为现在在我心里，她，暂时还是无法删除。。。
我很抱歉。。。

真的很怀疑自己。。。到底几时，才能让她从我心里搬走。。。
我能吗？？应该没有错。。。忘记一个人难。。。特地去忘记一个真正爱的人更难！！
我是否应该顺其自然？？可是，如果顺其自然，那我又几是才能把她忘了呢？？

SPM 要到了。。。我是否应该认认真真的开始准备了呢？？
或许我真的应该暂时把她放下了。。。hmm

我刚才去爬山。。。啊！！！今天量体重，我肥去了！！
我要减肥！！一定要！！！所以不可再吃经济饭！！要做运动了！！
加油吧！！我一定能的！！

好了，要关了。。晚安。。＝〕

学校，让我很闷，可是。。。

我总是很矛盾。。不喜欢学校，可是，却又想要去。。
是因为考试要到了吗？？大家压力变大了吗？？
还是我自己已经不知道要怎样面对学校了？？
每天都要看到她。。不想，可是心里又很矛盾的，
想要和她讲话。。。我，到底怎么了？？
不是说不可以了吗？？不是说，已经放下了吗？？
不是说她只是朋友吗？？不是说，我，已把她忘了吗？？
可是为什么？？她不理我，我的心就好痛，好痛呢？？

我讨厌 Milline！！曾经一度，我真的很生气她！
为什么？？本来好好的？就因为她的鸡婆，
我和她，难道就要再回到象上一次一样了吗？？
谁可以告诉我？？为什么会这样？？
我和她，到底还要经历多少。。。
所有的风风雨雨。才会过去呢？？

我真的很想念 form 4 ！
那一年，我真的懂得。。懂得什么叫快乐！
什么叫没有烦恼！！
为什么时间不能倒流？？
如果可以，那我能不能回到 二月六日？？
如果那天我没有和你告白。。
那事情还会是这样吗？？

或许从头到尾，只有我一个人在乎！！
只有我一个人想要回到过去。。。
只有我，在那边坚持。。。
或许她根本就不在乎我们之间这段友情。。
只有我！！！

是我傻吗？？我太苯了吗？？
有史以来，就只有我一个人在等待！！
我到底怎么了？？
到底要怎样，才能把她从我的记忆中删除呢？？

死乌鸦！！

Aragghh!!!就因为一只臭乌鸦飞过我的头！！就好象什么厄运都到我身上来了。。。
家庭的事情，还有学校的事情，她的事情！！什么事情都有！！烦！！
还以为，在学校里，我可以比较轻松。。那里知道！！gerr!!!

家人的perli, 让我受不了。。。
只会说，惨了啦。。都快考了，你准备好了吗？？bla bla bla~
他们根本就不知道。。。我到底在想什么。。到底要的是什么！！
他们不曾关心我！！ 爸爸只会工作！！只会给我钱！！
可是，他的关心，却好象南跟北一样远！
妈呢？她都不理我！只会说。。尽然不要读书，那去做工！！
她都没叫我读过书！！只会讲，你没用了！！
我也有自尊的好吗？？我也需要人疼！！

为什么！！为什么我的世界里，都得不到我想要的关爱呢？？
家人不理我，朋友呢？？
他们更不懂我！！她呢？？更不了解我！！
好不容易，才可以回到以前。。。
好不容易，才可以和你好回。。。
可是为什么？？为什么一些小小的流言，就能影响到你呢？？
难道，我们的友情就这么经不起考验吗？？

我只想做到最好！！
不想再蹋错一步！！
和你在一起，我每一步都走得很小心翼翼！！
我怕！！真的很怕！！
也就因为这样，
我已经尽我最大的力量。。。把你忘了。。
说道就做到！！我真的很努力！！
所以，不管你再怎样对我好，
我都不会胡思乱想！！
因为我知道你不是那种人！！
你绝对不会！！

难道你就那么没信心吗？？
就一点点人家对你的怀疑，你就不想再理我。。。
我就那么的不重要吗？？

Anyway, BAD + GOOD = GOOD ! for me...=)

Shit! i cant find any place to sit when i was on the bus...!! gerr!! so unlucky.. everytime, i got place de...i think is because that stupid fucker form 6 ppl ba!! she sit that place that i always sit !! gerr!! copy cat!! lolx...nevermind...continue by that...i just feel normal and go into my class like that...hmm..after having breakfast with ai jia...lolx..i back to calss!! shit prefect say ,y hair still long..yalah...i din cut sure long!! but pundei okay d eh loh! she wana let me pass de!! that puki heng cheng!! cibai!! she call the prefect say must also take me go cut!! knn lah! chao cibai!! gerr!! what the fuck!! hng!! hate hate hate!!!

I thought that nothing will happen..and is just cut by MISS PAO!! that crazy LAO CHU NV!! cibai!! how i know..she say my hair too short d!! why half year d still cant long?? and why stand eh?? bla bla bla!! leh mak!! ppl long, u demerit...ppl short, u take pic!! excue me...can i ask : " what did PCGHS actly WANT??!! " lolx....nevermine loh..they guk scold me that no use d...what not boy not girl!! dont they understand that actly i also human??!! i need some respect!! is it TB NOT HUMAN??!! har?? stupid fucking bitch!! fuck off better! !

I sign up BAO ZHEN SHU!! lolx...i dont want !! but no choice!! i need to be promiss...not to let my hair stand,not to cut boy style hair!! could i?? i can tell u truely!! imposible for me!! but..i must just follow the law!! for not get wearing SHOWER CAP!! gerr!!!

anyway...after that..i fell happy more d...i din go think about that...uhh...maybe,i unlucky ba...lolx!! whatever lah! cin cai lah!! but..sometime...sure will something lucky also de..hee

Now,lets talk about the happy ba...i stay today...the first time i stay on THURSDAY this year...rumah hijau...lolx...the reason is, accompany her...lolx...abit crazy lah...but,haha...i toh si so crazy...hmm...ya! i tell myself,this is just a normal friend acc friend...opps...nothing other to think please!! hmm...maybe..i should think like that ba...then..only...i will happy..hee

Rain getting bigger and bigger...lol...we can't go 1-stop..so, we stop infront 7-11..finally,we get a umbrella from zhi yuan..lolx...so, we walk to 1-stop..hmm...at there,we go eat KFC!! my love!! hee..i buy a chicky male...wahahaa...i like that...coz,that cute!! hu hahaha!! after that, we go find ah yong!! lolx..yong not at there!! disappointed...=/ haha...anyway,after that, she saw a pretty merried gown...she take the pic down...hmm..i know..she really like of this kind of things...lolx...after that, we go watch kung fu panda loh...haha.. infront ppl outlets...haha...siaoliao.and i laugh damn crazy loh!! lolx...she got lay on my shoulder...i got abit confuse that moment...but i know..i think, i could stand it...i will control my feeling..hmm...

We back to scl at maybe 3.50 something ba...hmm...after that, we go stadium...watching milo,zhi yuan them playing basket ball! wahahahaha!! damn funny!! damn cute!! lolx...we laugh, we talk behind the stadim.. ahh...there will be another memory for me..between me and her...hmm...

K lah...sleepy, night...=)

Happy teachers DAY!!

wahaha...today is teachers day...hmm..i am so excited to watching the show that perform by TRIPEL M~ michelle teo, Low milline and monica cheng!!! haha...i went to canteen with ahpin and siew hui early in the morning...i hope not to hungry later...coz..i want to HIGH!! haha...

Many parents come to our scl today..because,it is also the day of "penyampaian hadiah". Our school change style this year...hmm..all the students that gets price also can get the price from their parents...wow! is so siok!! lolx...if my mum can come..wah..she sure will very proud on me de...hmm...but....aikxz....sorry.. i cant kiss you on stage all along in my life...=/

I am so happy today...hmm..how to say..because i damn high!! alamak! hahaha....erm erm...she sit behind me...lolx...yaya!! is ok...just friend!! don't think about nonson d...lolx...but...she really pretty today..haha..hmm..anyway,let's continue... after singing negaraku,negeri pulau pinang..haha..we sing 因为有你 and 我们敬爱的老师, haha...damn crazy...this is the 1st time i sang so loud in our scl hall...haha...i think,also is the last time d ba...hmmm

Continue by that, we are all waiting for TRIPLE M!! lolx...wait wait wait and wait...haha...they are really infront lah...haha...finally, they came out!! omg!! they are so cool man!!!!michelle teo are acting a malay stupid girl...milline geng...she are a kindergaden stupid kids...she having a pair of cutie bian zi, the spanbob beg are so cute!! arghhh!! miss JEFF!! haha....and continue by her ugly long socks!!!! alolx....how come ha??? how come i got such cutie friends??!! thanks god...wahahaha!! at last, monica!! siao ah cheng!! dunoe that where did she borrow ppl primary scl uniform...omg!! and is boy eh guk!! and so that only can act a stupid primary scl student!! and...with that cool spec!! haha!! they are so yeng!! I LOVE THEM so MUCH!!! muackxzzzz!!!

That only the moment that we are really damn crazy fucker stupid HIGH!! i love that moment!! GOD...can you turn back the time?? lolx!! i will very appreciate...lolx...yaya....feng xian!! sang by hui wen!! wow!! i tell you...i think she really can be the next super star loh...lol...her sound like...erm..dunoe how to say...perfect!! i love that...hmm...and also taht gimsnatik girl...are she human?? i dont really think so...lolx..her body so.....nui...haha...yeng!! and also our lovely juanna!! she is really so beautifull..such like angel...when she make up...lolx...telling true lah...din perli kayy??lolx...i love you too ya. haha

Before recess..i go toilet with von lah...lol..so many ppl...but kencing saya sudah mahu keluar..haha...as ai jia says...lolx...i dunoe that guan lai we need to Q up de...so, on that moment,we sit behind the hall..hmm...so shu fu there...can lay on the wall for few minutes...haha...at there..i saw a pretty perfect telling by von...hmm...she is really pretty...lolx...wait about few minutes ba...i sit together with her...erm...i tell myself...i cant have any other sucks feeling to her d...but..wow! really dificult..lolx...after that, we pun go toilet d loh...hmm...

hahaha!! After recess!! is the time of life band!! hmm...i so scare that i cant go ahpin there...lolx...when the light just turn off...haha! is the time!! i change my place!! wu hu wahaha!!i sit infront ahpin!! yes!! i still can continue high d!! hurray!! my hand ah...damn pain loh..i clap my hand..i shout loudly!! lolx...just for that moment...

TRIPLE M go up the stange one more time!! for having a game...hahaha!! siao eh them!! why they so cute de?? alamak!! beh dong lah...just hope that i can go up the stange and just hug them like that!! oh my goodness!! lolx!!! i also get a price loh!! haha... the 1st time..really...a cd...but sorry lah...i cant found a song that i like in that cd...lolx...

Then..is time to finish...lolx...when all about the form 3, 4 and 6 studens back to class, we need to sing...haizz...sing the graduat song...is so sad for me...haizz...i am going to graduat! can i duwan??sobx!! i will really miss my friends!! all of you!! ahpin,michelle,milline,evelyn,yeemin,von,ahcheng................many many...all of you!!! haizzz.....
i just hope that the time can just stop at there...dont even want it to run anymore........

Okay...is all for today...sleepy...klah..i go sleep d ha...night my friends!!=)

再难还是要试～

好了。。不要想太多了。。
说过要把她忘了。。讲到就要做到！
记得曾经答应过自己。。不要再让自己受伤了。。

好累。。。爱你真的把我弄得好累。。
我是时候要幸福了。。而只有忘了你，我才会幸福，快乐。。。
郭芊岑！！ 你真的应该醒了！！

你一定要告诉自己。。
她的动作，她的眼神，
都不是因为你是谁。。而是因为，你是她的好朋友！！

她的动作，她的一切，都不属于你。。
想要留意吗？是！ 很想！！
可是这些，都不可以再做了。。。
你要懂的，只有放弃，才会让自己过得更好。。
而学会放弃，才是一种爱她的方式。。。

所以，不管再怎么困难，你都要坚强！！
答应自己！你不可以再为她掉一滴眼泪了！！
她，不值得！！因为值得那位，不会让你哭！
总有一天，会有人代替她！一定会！
而她，只能成为我美好的回忆。。。

不管怎样。。你都会在我心里。。
你一定也要幸福。。这样的话，我才懂得。。
其实世界上，都有属于自己的幸福。。。
只有这样，我才会相信。。。
我，也有可能是幸福的～

haizz!! can i stop thinking about her?? lolx!

today is saturday... hmm. no school..lolx.. how come leh?? i like to school damn much! in school, i totally hope that the time can walk slowly..haizz...izit becaouse of her again?? lolx. so suckxz la.. KOAY CHIAN CHING!! you promiss yourself!! you should GIVING HER UP wad!! you CANT THINK about HER anymore!! lolx!!

it's so dificult to stop thinking about someone you really like. and maybe, really love. hmm. i really need alots of time. but can i be more faster to forgot about her?? haizz... i hate those feelings!! i dont like!! that so hurt!! so sad!! so helpless!! no one can help me!! why in my life, i should get the same feelings repeatly?? why??!! last time eve, now von!! lolx!! can stop that?? lolx..can i just let ppl love, but not to love anyone?? lols..........

i wake up early in the morning today.. is just 9.32 in the morning...lolx.. i cant continue sleep anymore..don't know why..haizz.. i wake up and eat my breakfast.. today breakfast is roti canai!! hmms.. i like it!! lolx..after that, i go online...i watch step up 2 on youtube..lolx..so excited leh!! i like those dancer!! so yeng!!! lolx... dnoe when only i can become like that er...maybe..wont also! lolx..after that my mum call..she say that faster go bath...she wana fetch me up to our own house...we need to clean up...lolx..i lazy lah...but i like to go..i can sweat at there...i can excersice...haha...coz, i already 1 week din swim d..lolx..so unhealthy la!! my mum lah! huiyo!! hmm...

i help my mum sweap the floor loh..that hour maid so stupid! lol... beh eong eh larh...haizz.. she guk nong4 dao3 water loh!! lolx..watever..she new lah maybe.. hmm..i dont care.. hahax.. i went to my house, i go watch tv loh..my house got tv3 , ntv7 and also 8tv loh.. lolx..long time no see d!! haha.. i watch a malay drama! damn nice loh! what bawang putih bawang merah de..haha! i like it !! lolx..than when 8 like that i back loh.. them i go have dinner with my mum..so long din eat together d.. i mean, just with my mum lah..hmm..

after that i went back my ama house and bath.. hmm.. so hope that my house faster zhuang xiu ok.. thn i can go back sleep d...at there, my room there eh window can saw many many beautiful light eh..i mean ( ye4 jing3) i can fa dai at there if i cant sleep at night..lolx..hmm..

is so late d.. i view many ppl profile, thn i chat with that lim yee min in msn!! ya. i guk got sms with ahpin and evelyn.. haha... ahpin so cute lah!! beritahu bang, dik sedih, dik nangis...hahaha!! sweat! k lah...is so late.. iwant sleep d.. hmm.. night!

我会放弃。。。

opps. i was so sleepy today. lolx. always must wake up in the early morning.. haihs.. okayy. nevermind.. i will find my way to get up early. hmms.. yesterday night, i msg with her. from those msg, i know that i need to giving her up. even i really love her. but, i need to do like that. hmm...you tell me that, we are very very good friend. very very best friend. all of thet told me that i wont even be your boy friend or girl friend. lolx. lame lah. hmm

before get into my dream last night, i think many many..now aday, many problem tide me up..lolx. love? friends? haizz...it all come suddenly.. i dunoe how should i handle it... in love, ya, i should give up! but friends?? should i give up?? four of us?? hax.. i think, maybe it could change already... not me anymore...maybe, we all are already too far... cant change back time anymore...its just can be memory...

sorry , my friends...i do love you, but, i am so sorry... i dont even know how to talk to you all anymore.. maybe, i am wrong.. i just like to be high, like to be crazy, and i crazy with cheng them and always lost out u all... sometime in class, because of wana play and chat with her, maybe.. i always forget about u all..sorry... haihs.. today, i try to talk with shan hui...lols! i fail again!!! omg!! what can i do?? and what should i do??!! lols..!! its so fake!! why can trun like this??!! haizzz!!! how and when could i find backmy friends???!!! who can tell me what to do??!! why??!! why i can turn like this?? last time in my life, i just know how to smile... i just know about crazy and funny...but now?? izit because of SPM??!! the sucker??!!! lolx!! irt make us so.....haizzz....

anyway, today, BC teacher saw the paper that draw by her until ugly..lolx...its so stupid that i tell teacher that draw by my brother..haizz...why wor?? izit that so fake?? i just want her feeling good..lolx...evelyn said that dunoe i can really put her down not..hmms..haizz.. i think, i should really need alot of time!! lolx... after that, we go for sn pameran..lolx..so bored at there...anyway, i drink the wine...there got apple,kiwi,long zhu guo,pine apple...many many more lah.. dunoe lah..i taste alots loh..hmm..maybe,i really like wine...i like drunk...i like dont to think so much.. i like to forgot all about the sadness!!! lolx... i like kiwi.. but she said kiwi taste bad... lolx..pig not same as human??!! hng! whatever lah.. she know, i wont angry.. hmm...

i tell evelyn my feelings today..i tell her that i will gve her up today.. she support me..maybe,as friends,who also dont even like me looks suffer...and for me, i am the happy go lucky person..and i should not because of lve staff,, and become upset@ hmm.. okayy.. i do promiss! i will try my best. GIVE UP! =)

k lah..nothing special today d...erm..tired d..good night.. haizz

我哭了～

她生病了。。我知道她今天不会来学校，更知道今天我的心情肯定会很差。。我不想去学校，可是我却是时候学会不要再让她牵动我的心了。。毕竟，这只会让我更受伤而已。。最后，我还是到了学校。可是我的心情，还是无法不让她影响。。我很想听她的声音。。很想让她逗我。。很想她。。很想她。。。



朋友都很担心我，我了解。。在他们的心里，懂的，只是她不爱我，所以想的就是我会努力的把她忘了。。可是又有谁懂，我，已经陷得很深很深了。。。我真的办不到。。。每天都会有愚蠢的想法。。都会以为自己还可以。。我办得到。我会笑，我会开心，我不会在意。。可是最近的压力，让我自己都无法理解。。朋友的不了解，朋友的不懂，都深深的让我不知所措。。我到底该怎么让朋友了解我？？



珊慧说我不在意她。。有吗？？evelyn 他们告诉了我，我好象一直在伤害珊慧。。我哭了。。内疚的哭了。。对！ 或许我真的不怎么理你。。也不怎么管你。。对不起。或许在我心里你太坚强了。我以为我不需要保护你。。也不许要怎么去讲笑来逗你笑。。也不许要好象对evelyn 和yeemin 酱对你。。因为毕竟你很大人。。在我们四个里面你是最大的。。我以为我不许要怎么管你。。可能你也拥有你自己的想法。。或许我讲的都不会帮到你。。可能，不管我再怎么努力，我都无法进入你的世界。。你了解吗？我不是不在乎你。。而是不知道要用什么方法去关心你。。对不起，让你担心了。。让你为了我甚至伤心了。。。我能说的，却只有对不起。。。

我知道你们都很关心我。。你们对我的担心，我感觉到。。可是我却一直弄你们为我担心。。我很没用！！ 我很弱。。我很容易让感情摆弄。。很容易让心情受影响。。好象干才，我对 evelyn 大声了。我敢肯定，如果是以前，我一定不会这样大声。。以前，我都会把自己的心情收起来，绝对不会表现出来，可是最近，因为她，我的心情却很糟。。。糟得很离谱。开心就象疯婆，心情不好，就拿朋友来出气！

对不起。。我真的很想对你们说。。对不起。。真的真的对不起。。我会让我自己变强。。我真的会。。我不会让你们担心。。谢谢你们。。如果这一路走来我没有你们的话，我真的不知道该怎么办。。或许，我早就撑不下去了。。可是我却一而再再而三的让你们不知道要怎样安慰我。。而且还一直弄你们伤心。。没有顾到你们的感受。。。以为我自己一直都对。。只有你们不了解我。。可是却不知道问题其实是出现在我身上。。。

给我时间。。只有时间可以证明一切。。我会努力的去爱你们。。珍惜你们。。还有，对不起。。。谢谢你们为我做的一切。。。我爱你们！！！

只有她，我才会懂得笑。。

怎么办？她已深深的牵动着我的心了。。只有她在的地方，我才想要多留一秒。。每天早上醒来，如果不是因为她，我就连去学校的心情都没有。。就连上课，我都没有心专心听课，心里想的只是希望老师不要进班。。那我就可以和她聊天。。我只想要分分秒秒都和她在一起。。就算只能看着她，也无所谓。。。



我是否过火了？？ 爱她的心无法再回到从前。。。朋友都告诉我，是时候放弃了，我和她，不可能。。。她，永远不会爱我。。可是为什么？我就不忍心把你丢下？？不管你是为了谁，或许在你心里有着别人。。又或者你的眼泪，是在为他而流，我还是只想你会给我一次机会。。让我在你身边，就算只是安慰。。。



我是否该问你。。你的心里有我吗？为什么。。我却怎么都办不到。。。多想问你究竟爱谁。。可是答案是否跟以前一样？答案里，不会有我？？对你，我失去了信心。。越是爱你，就越是在乎。。越是爱你，就越是怕受伤。。。我该怎么面对这一切？？那种永远不会和你在一起的一切？？



你最近过得还好吧？？就连这短短的一句话，我都无法问你。。每次想要传短讯给你。。可是就连勇气都没有。。到底我该怎么办？？放弃是种解脱吗？？我想尝试。。因为爱你，让我很辛苦。。可是也因为爱你，我才会有笑容。。。你，了解吗？

14/6/2008~ yeepii...=)

opps..i am so stupid..i wake up when the clack was just 6 am in the early morning! lolx...i scare that she was alone...second..i scare that when i late,i need my ama fetch..so that my hair will be ugly coz sitting motor..hmm..so sleepy..but when the time i saw her..i feel awake..=)..she just wearing a simple pj t-shirt...and a short pans with a pair of slipper...hmm...but,she still let me feel that she was so pretty...hmm...haha...

she was accompany me for waiting ahpin comming...lolx...but i just hope that ahpin will come lately...haha...nolah..joke lah..i wont so sui de lah..hmm...we chat many things...erm..i feel happy that moment...that is the time that we two was together without any friends beside after we good back..hmmm..thanks god! haha......but i got something unhappy..i hate that the ppl that go take part on singging competition..lolx..pundei she can sing de..pundei i can saw her perform de...pundei i can hear her nice sound de...haizz...hmm...but is ok lah...she can stay beside me all along the singging competiton merh..hee..although that time i am not so high lah...hmm

continue by that,we go to ban hoe kopitiam for taking our breakfast and lunch...then only we go to gurney plaza by getting fetch from ah cheng mama! hee...we go buy movie ticket! opps...i meet that chao ah jie..haha...my cousin..hmm..naughty lah her..come gp also din tell me...after that,after we make dicision,we comfirm that we want to watch kung fu panda! hmm...we getting help from my cousin for buying a children ticket and just only for rm5!! haha...so siok! lolx.. after that...for not wasting time,we go for a walk...we go coffee been for chatting...and,taking picture...opps ya! we meet a baby...ahpin lover...he is so cute...lolx...we got take pic with him...

see!! he is so damn cute...but telling true...he i not the type of baby that i actly like...haha...anyway!i still love him lah..hmm...

after that, when it was the time,we also go for enjoiying our movie...hee..it was so boring when the openning...but after that..its so funny!! haha!!! i will always remenber this movie...the 1st movie that i watch with her...lolx... KUNG FU PANDA!! ahaha!

nah...see..there was include AI-JIA,SIEW HUI,ZEN PIN,EU JUN inside...i was also inside...but..i was only the kelefe...erm...the running PIG... hng! wahahaha..i really like that movie lah!! it was SOSOSO CUTE!! =)

After that,we have no where to go...we just walk around...go popular,buy birthday card for siew hui..and also SNJ for choosing her present...coz,we have to celebrate with her that night!!! hee...we choose a cook egg dia for her.haha...hello kitty eh loh...damn chubii...haha...hope that she will happy lah.hmm..continue by that, we pun go to food court...while waiting sapu uncle...hmm

5.30, its the time to jin huo guo...for celebratng siew hui birthday...hmm...when we reach there...is just only 5.45 like that nia...me,ahoin,von and eve are the first team that reach there...hmm...we start our dinner 1st..coz..we damn hungry! haha..we know that bos - fei fei zhi chao..he is so funny man..lolx...after that,siew hui like calling come..erm erm..she ask us why wan turn huo guo zhi jia to jin huo guo?? after that, we know that shan hui, ching ying,yeemin and melisa are fedup on me!!!! hng!! siao eh...if they want go huo guo zhi jia thn go lah...nuh need come ji huo guo lah! hng! but ho chai...at last,i din angry anymore..hmm...

i play with ahcheng...hahax...when michelle was at huo guo zhi jia coz of yue yu fetch her wrong way, ah cheng want to go to fetch her...she call us book on the parking place..haha...so sweat and funny!! lolx...but since that time, yvonne feelling not so well..her stomuch start naughty...and her mood start turn moody...hmm..my heart felt not so good also..haizz...just hope that she will be okayy..hmm

when we go back..haha..we play true or dare...lolx...they force me and michelle teo kissing and french...lol...i am not scare at all..coz, we kiss before...hehe..but they say,they feel geli leh..actly i wont feel that loh..coz, we are just friends mah!! hmm..nothing de lah...lolx...we guk play many many geli things...eat the cake with our finger...lolx...yvonne scar and not dare to eat...sorry lah..i really din feel that u realy dislike this kind of thing de..hmm

after jin huo guo,we go to BNS...the place really like!! hmm...there was so romantic...we can play,talk,dare at there...but the bad is..there just have few air-cone...i feel hot there..lolx...hmm...on the first, i take pic with her loh..but to0 black d lah..so i cant take the good pic with her that time...haizz...since i and her need the aircone,so,we sit under the aircone...then,she say she want sleep on my leg there..lolx..that really is the 1st time after we good bad loh...for last time..this just normal lah...hmm...but i think we really cant go back last time d..hmm...after that we play true or dare...she dont like..so she duwan...hmm...than, i din get dare at all..haha...good luck leh...but! it also bad also...my fren alex,she get dare to do me!! lolx!! she like bian tai!! siao eh!! she rape me..and wana kiss me!! guk chek me..like really make love aneh...ar'nt she crazy?? omg!! so,i cry...coz, i really feel yuckxz on this kind of things!!! like..really very cheap!! very geli!! very dirty!!! lolx...

yeemin was also cry coz she think about her past...that alex girl..actly is the bad ppl that steal her 1st hp!! lolx...yeemin so hurt lah...haizz..pity...lolx...so that can say...this world really small lah..haizz....

ya! befor she was back..we two sit beside there and chating many..i feel so xin fu at that moment...but,she back on the very early time- 10 something ba...hmm...i totally no mood d..after she was back..but i told myself..i cant so tan xin...she already be with me whole day..hmm..i must happy...haha..ya lah..i really happy that day..=)

wow...so long d...i want go for weadding dinner d..klah...good bye...hee

it start bored when i was in school !!! my god! lolx

lolx...everyday in the morning..i feel sleepy...that feeling damn shit..if not because of her,i think i wont wake up easily!! haizz...maybe i should thanks to her...and maybe because of her...it let me like to go to scl...lolx

but now aday,after the change of the time table...omg! everyday ...all of the period also feel boring! feel sleepy!! she cant come my place for chatting...ahpin also!! we need to stay on our place quietly!! haizz!!!

TOday,1st two period is BC period loh!! wah lao...not sleepy loh!! sien ga wana die d loh!! lolx...wana sleep ki d loh...but guk cnt lah...must respect teacher mah..hmm...after that is science period...haha..that period i like..can talk with ahpin merh..hee...lolx..she so playfull know??always wana cat me eh...guk tell teacher i take BC homework go sn lab copy...but okayy lah..better than we have nothing to talk..hmm...i like her playfull..haha

after that...the following period..lolx..just one word! BORED!!! haizz...dunoe how stand d..lolx
but i know that 2mr she will come siew hui party..haha...lolx...i din go out with her before know??2mr is the ist time..but...lolx..is after scl lah..hmm...so excited that i can saw her 2mr...hmm...

tired d..nothing to say d...go sleep 1st...hmm

What can i do?? lolx

I feel tired this few day...it must be not enough sleep..lolx...

since yesterday night,after talking phone with milline,i know that she already read my blog..haizz..how come wor?? she read without any feeling...haizz...what can i do now??should i really really give up?? but,i do love you so...what can i do??

i ask her yesterday...she told me that she read my blog...without any lieness...she say that she read my blog without any feeling...lolx...i am not to hope that she got any feeling..but...atleast...give me some responds mah...i just care you so much...haizz...

Today, i go scl scarely..i scare that we will gang gak today..cause yesterday i ask her such things...erm..but it still okay...thanks that din have anythings happen...hmm..i just copy my chiness essay in class when i reach my class early in the morning...it nothing special...so boring today!! lolx..all of the period today was so suckx!! i suffer from the english period for two period!! omg!!! that stupid crazy sucks teacher guk duwan let us lay down and copy wor...she say mush sit straigh straigh...e si siao liao!! lolx... guk nevermind loh...when finish copy,she guk duwan let us sleep wor...leh...what the!! haizz..i am so sien!!!

when it was resess time...hmm..i feel bad on something...hooili like really beh siok me aneh eh...alol..sun bian put my plate nia mah..also cannot..she need jealous like that o0?? i and jeff just brother lah kayy?? he wont like me de lah..alolx..she think also know lah..is she stupid?? and ah..i think she maight be misunderstood something loh...milline not duwan go her class find her kayy?? is she too late reach scl le kay?? she dunoe think mia izit?? like very beh siok me aneh..alol..siao eh...haizz...

i feel confuse toda...like many things need to think aneh eh...but i guk cant say out what that i think wor...lolx...

ya! account!!omg!! my account fail loh!!! 46% nia...lolx!! how leh?? how tell y mum leh?? she sure scold me eh!! she sure perli me..." neh si oh! eng gai!! call you go ttn acc u duwan!! say teacher no good! dunoe teach!! nah..now fail d loh!!! " bla bla bla.......lolx..charm d lah... really charm d...haiz.anoiying loh!! what shit life is going on??! lolx

she guk like really nothing aneh eh...wont she feel touch or what eh meh?? really din have any feel meh?? i got so bad o??lolx! haizz....useless!!!!just now she msg me..wah lao..i feel happy when i saw her name...but..lolx..she just ask me about ching ying's hp number! i guk think beh tiok wana talk what with her wor...haizz...how leh ah?? mah just can miss her nia loh...chat also cnt d loh!! lolx..stupid!!

duwan talk d lah...pekchek!! dunoe why i so stupid eh wor!!! lolx!! no medicine to take d me!! maybe thats true lah..like a person let me turn stupid! haizz....k lah...go sleep d..night..=/

hmm...i was so tired yesterday..so,i am lazy to post my blog..hee...is ok..今天补回吧 ＝〕



yesterday was the 1st day of school after holiday..hee..i can saw her d...hee..erm erm...she cut her hair...how cute she was..haha..i think i maight be crazy..lol..okayy...i do promiss i will forget about her...okayy...i will really try my best..but why??



每次当我一看见她，心就会很紧张，很怕她会注意我...LOL...可是我明明就知道她不会理我...i just stupid like that...lol..maybe..that love ba..hmm...当你真的爱上一个人，或许就是这种感觉吧，每次都要装到不在乎那样，可是明明心里就在呼到要死..haizz...为什么会这样呢？？



when i just reach school, i tought that i wil go eat with kaixian at canteen...but she was have apointment with her friends at 7-11 ba i think...so that i wall to class with my cousin...hmm..afterthat i take that ROSE that have the T-BACK with RED colour to aijia...haha...i call her wait for ah pin come only open that present...lol..how crazy leh...but than they open when von is there also...she laught at that present...hee...dont know why,i feel happy when i saw her smile...lol...after that,i was anoiying about her present..omg! i m so shit! no dare am i to give her a give! i scare about her dislike...i care about she will been perli...i care and i think many.......



i feel sien on the 1st period...lol...shan hui them talk happyly..but that was all the topic i dont like to join...after that,pin pin got come to our place..hee...ofcoz..she to0...i turn to awake from sleepy...hee...i think is becoz of her ba..hmm..lols



BM teacher gv us our result..lolx..i just take 44 marks..but is ok for me...=)

after that,i tell shan hui..i not dare to give her that POLO-T...lolx..我想我是白痴..shan hui also scold me..without thinking...i give her the t-shirt..haha..she sat thanks to me...lols...i maight be crazy d...hmms...



MM teacher say the my 眼光 good eh..haha..teacher say that she like that shirt...after asking for the price..she ask that got L size not...lolx...got ah...hee...

for me...i just hope that she will like that shirt..lolx..i think she will wear lah hor??hmm...=s..



we keep continue talking on EST period...lol..that teacher sould be very hate us...coz..we really noisy...hmms...sorry loh...we din take EST mah...who call us so lucky din teach by you leh hor??sure lah we will talk...hmm..and also thanks god that giving me this kind of cleverest! i din take EST...and also like that...i can continue chat with her for more 2 period...hee

after resest,no teacher was come in to our class for 4 period...we pass that beautiful time with crazy,smile,laugh......hee...

这天可以说很开心吧...可以说，和她在一起不管怎样，我都会只有笑容...谢谢你...＝〕

lets talk about today ba..hmm..when i just reach my class..lolx..shanhui,siewhui,melisa,chingying...all of them sleep...and ai jia din sit bus...it was so quiet in my class...and just becoz of that,i also follow them to sleep...hmm...until that i heard huiming sound!! i just awake...hng!

nothing special today...everything goes normally...hmm...but..i was so cold on the 1st period and second period...lolx...it was IT period...in the air-cond room...lol...i get my IT result...hehe...21 marks..clever??ya...21 over 70...i maight be very clever..haha...charm lah...lol...is ok lah...for my standart..is like that d eh...hmm...but..i really got read know??but why??i dont know how to answer all neh??and also get help by juanna...aboh..i think i will just get 12 ba??hee...

becoz of teacher wana gv us and explain about the exam paper...so that..we are very guai..and sit on our own place...so...lolx...nuhneed say d lah...i cant talk with her on the 1st 5 period...hmm...haizz...sorry...imaight be abit bored leh..always talk about her...but why??o toh si cant dont even want to think about her leh??aikxz...

when it was after resest..we meet her infront the 礼堂..she was admire about hailing...lolx...i mean siao la...hmm...24 season drum was playing drum there...so that we also go in for their presentation...omg!! telling true...xuan ling damn pretty leh...lolx...how come??haha

and she...she was damn paying attention about the presntation...it can sat that...she was so concentrate about the presentation from her "love" one ba...haizz...ya..i jealous lah...but how wor??hmms...

we got stay today...for the inter class preparation...hmm...i cant open mself up leh...how??i feel stress infront her...i cant be that crazy and ugly infront her know??i try to gv my best performents...i dont even want pin pin to disapointed...but...sorry...i promiss...i will do my very best infront puan chan...i promiss...sorry about my moody today...hmm...

she went back on 4.45...alol...so??ofco..i totally no mood ...to stay at scl d...i know i very bad...haizz...but i will change lah...wont like that d eh..just need time...hmm

omg!tired...klah...wana go eat d...will be continue..bye..=)

想念你的心不曾停止。。。我爱你～

终于，我的电脑修理好了。。哈哈，我可以用中文之心了。。＝〕

之前的部落格很白痴。。因为都是用英文。而我的英文又烂到不行。。好了！终于可以比较正确的写出我的心情了。

放假已经两个星期了。。而我也有两个星期没见到她了。。心里还是无法不想念她。。每个深夜，都有好几次都忍不住要和她说一声晚安。。可是偏偏我却不能这样做。。而我还能忍多久？现在的我，除了只能远远的望着她，我还能做什么？想念一个人的心很难受，而想念一个不会想念你的人更难受。。。

我爱你。。这句话我好想跟你说。。可是不管我再怎么努力，你都不可能会听见。。。

爱，它是什么？？它是真的吗？对我而言。。我对你的爱它很真。。可是偏偏它却会为我带来痛苦，伤心，还有流泪。。在我心中，它根本不是一个值得信任的东西。。。不管我再怎么拼命要和它当好朋友，它都不会和我当朋友。。。它只会让我痛苦，伤心，流泪。。而这些事，她永远都不会知道。。她也不会相信。。因为，她连找出真相的一分钟都不想为我浪费。。而我，到现在。。还无法找回真正的自己。。原因却只是因为爱太深了，想回也回不了了。。。

今晚的天空很多乌云。。我的心何尝不是。。你让我连想念的机会都失去了。。我知道此时此刻，我所需要做的，就是放弃你。。我答应过，我会努力。。就算再辛苦，我都会尝试。。因为，我真的真很爱很爱很爱你。。。

My holidays~ KL trip!! wahahaha...prison life!! muackxzz!!!

I was in KL from 26/5 until 31/5....

ahahaha!! it was so fun with ah cheng, michelle teo, milline, ting ting, and yu yu!!! i love all of them!! muackxz!!

between this few days, i feel happy and feeling high!! omg!!
we totaly just like that crazy girls!!! wahahaha

we went GENTING at the 1st day!! like a siao po there!! loolx...we play many game!!

let the pic told all about that ba...hmm...my SWEET MEMORY~ =)

the 1st place...genting theampark!!we are ready to play!! wahahaha!!

infront ghost house...tke some pic ba...hee...nah...8 of us...hmm...

and now,we are waiting for the childish game...lolx...damn hot know??guk need q up so long!! arghhh!!!!lets see...what the stupid childish game ba...hmm

nah...up of that childish game...actly,we is wana go up and look about what game can we play at indoor lah...haha...but..i really dont like...not excited at all...hmmm

and now, we are up of that exited game!!wahahaha!!!roller coaster!! see that stupid mill face!! she scare!!ahahaha!! boh eong lah!! lolx...and ting ting!! you know that...you are so cute??omg!! i love you lah!!hahaha!!

continue...ting ting, ah yu, yeemin,shan hui and me went to SNOW WORLD!!! wahaha!! i will regret if i din go that amazing place!! omg!! i love there!!before that,shan hui lost her phone know??wow..she is so lucky...got an india ppl take bek for her...and that indian boy was so frenly lah...he take phone with me er..kakaz...guk take pic with us...omg!! frenly!!but why not a england boy or what leh hor??aikxz...will more handsome...haha....and not just shan hui...that stupid ting ting also lost her phone loh...lolx...is a bad day today...alamak...but finally,they all found bek lah...haha...okok...dont talk too much d..lets go in to our SNOW WORLD!!haha

so cool man~~ haha we are so scare when taking this pic..coz...inside there,cant take pic eh know??curi curi lah...lolx
see ting ting mouth!! ahahaha!!CUTE LARH..ahahaha

igloo!! siao yeemin..see your gong bin face! lolx

at last...take a chuan jia fu ba..haha...i will wont forgot that moment...=)

ok...now,this is the place that we sleep tonight!

ASRAMA!! JIAN LAO!! lolx!!
wow!!that great!! i was the 1st time i live at the asrama!!
wahahahahaha!!!

there was about 20 double decker bed inside a room!!! see..that are our stupid BED!! haha! our JIAN LAO!! hmm..chatting our puki jiap, tak kor, and bra there...ahahaha!!!
at night,we are all siting up on the bed!!
we chatting,we crazy,we smile,we laught!!!
and we even touch each other breast as we like!!!ahahaha!!!


nah...there is me and ah cheng!! siao eh...hmm...i got a video to0...wana see?? erm..but...very kiap eh...duwan put d lah...hee..=P

and because of that,
we turn to a prisoner!!!haha...
i cam in and just because of smelling ppl panties!!!ahahaha!!!
siao eh!!lolx



second day at maluri hotel!!
we go OLD TASTE!!

hahaha...we like a crazy ppl there!!!
like samseng!!hahahahaha!!!
we play true or dare!!!
milline lost!!get dare!!but she not dare..
so,get scold by michelle teo!!
than,she need to buy bear for us..for a punisment!!hahaha!!!

we go back to hotel and drink again!!
we shake! we cheers!! we dance!!! we drink!!!!!wahahaha!!


DAMN HIGH!! i like that!! hee

shan hui also get drunk...and da3 jia4 with laoshing yee...
lolx..they two ah...haha

anyway..
the day after maluri,michelle teo them toh need back pg d
lolx...i am so miss them!!
so regret that din back with them!!
it was so bored when i stay at KL...haizz

by the way...is over lah
now i at penang d!!
wow!!so tired!!
i must charge back my bateri d!! hmm!!
waiting for tuesday!!
redbox!!!!hahaha
klah..tata=)

(still got many pic at nothingham,taylor,monash university lah...i lazy post d...lolx...if wana see...go my friendster ba cenn_91@hotmail.com)

bye...