30/4/2008

long time din post d...hmm...busy this few days...lolx! exam is coming soon!! haizzz....i try to study hard...try my very very best and not to think about nonson...but at last,i still cant control...i wonder that i really am a idiot!!haizzz...in mylife...all my brain..i just think about the imposible thing...all about her...all about her...and all about her again...duii...when only can i wake up??

last few day,momo call me..she say that she need a sorry from my mounth seriously...cause i really din say sorry to her before...since that day i scold her by sms...i got think before that i must face by face and talk to her sorry...but finally,i still fail!! i cant even talk to her...what the problem??lolx...

28/4/2008...momo tell me that today, yvonne feel disapoited on me...she say that she already try her best to talk with me...but finally,i din chai her...haizz...i not duwan leh...really lah...is i dunoe she is talking with me mah...haizz...afterthat,i send a sorry msg to von...she got reply...but...short...lolx...when can i sms with her happyly??

29/4/2008...milline birthday today...i help momo to give her a surprice...call all her friends sign that birthday card for her...i want let von sign...but finally...i still not dare!! if you know me...if u are a girl...i think u also will very hate me...cause,i really din have any brave ...and the most crazy thing is...i din have any brave to talk to my lovely...even just call her sign a card,i also not dare!!haizzzzzzzzzzzzzz...damn me!!she is true...she really must feel disapoited to me...momo help me so seriously...but me??what also not dare!!shit!haizz

30/4/2008...erm...today i feel happy...er..i think i really got talk to her lah...but finally,she din chai me...izit that she feel fan3 gan3 d??haizz...anyway...i will keep going...try my very best...talk to her...hmm

haha...happy today 26/4/2008

today is sherrine birthday!! haha...buddy!! i love u o0...=) hope u happy everyday ya!! muackxz!

yest night,i send her a msg...i tok that i cant recive any reply from her...wait wait wait and wait...but still din recive...after that...i sleep...hmm

when i wake up,after bath,hax...my handphone vibrate...hehe...she reply me d!!izit feel that i very childish??lolx...but dunoe why,i toh si happy...how leh??lolx..aldhougt that msg just have five word...but,that is a lucky thing for me le...good than she din chai me at all...hee...after that...she wana study...haizz...guk cant chat with her d...but nvm.i will wait...i just belive that we will talk back normaly one time!! hmm

i wana go celebrat with sherrine d..hope that she can get a surprice!!hee

21/4/2008 can i just hug you tide...and don't let you go??

ahpin was absent today...lolx...i talk that today can stay and so that i can saw you for a long time....am i starting crazy??lolx...even i get scold by you,but i was so happy...lolx

i ask many ppl today...if you have two choice,1...u can choose a person that dont even like you,but you like her deeply,2...u can choose a person that very like you,but,you din have any feeling on her...which one you will choose...they give me many answer...maybe 1 or maybe 2...but finally,i choose 1...i choose to like you...choose to wait you in my heart..even it maybe will vry hard..or it will be very lonely...but,this is the way i choose to like you...

god lets me belive that...we will get the things we like if we work it harder,and don't even give up...i know that,you wont like me...or maybe,u totally din have any feeling on me now...but i will try my best...maybe...one day...i will prove it to u harder...to let you know that...i'm the one,that really really love you...hmm

it is rain now...i hope that i can say good night to you,but our distance told me that i cant do like that...even just a good night,maybe...we will get more far...but just belive that...i will wait....slowly ...and walk to you again...just because,i like you...goodnight=)

20/4/2008

i talk that i can saw her today...hmms...but,i'm wrong...don't know why..i will so miss her...even i already saw her yesterday...she was so pretty yesterday...when she dance,all about her,her action,her eyes,just make me feeling high...i was so regret...why that now only know all about her?her pretty,her nice,her action...all about her.......

i like her...really...just like her so much...like her deeply...why can i be like that??all of my friends say thatisure will like her for a short time...even 1 month or 2 month..i also can't belive that...why?i can still like her now??

i was so dissapointed that i cant saw her today...yest night,i was so happy...i just hope that i can saw her today...even just 1 minute...than it is enough to me...but....

now aday...everyday,i just got a same hope...i just wish that i can talk to you...but...i fail everyday...i can't do it!! sorry that i have a very high feeling on you...if can,i really wana hug u now...hug u tide on this moment...tell true..i really need u now...just this second,this moment...i don't wana let you go...really...i was so helpless now...but...u can't even stay beside me...=/

god..when and what the way that i cant hear back her sound???haizzzz

14/4/2008

izit that she is really really stay deeply in my heart??lolx...how can i miss her even i was sleeping?? yest night i get a troble dream that happen between me,shanhui and her...omg! we was killing her and throw her in the paradise beach that without water...what are the dream trying to tell me? and what will heppen between us??

continue by that,i was so sleepy and try to take a sleep when it was last period.. i get the same story in my dream although the place was change..she is facing the death also...after that,i get a shock and wake up suddenly...as kaixian tell me, when dream that other ppl die,that means got a bad thing will happen on me..will i facing something troble?? but if thats true...i really hope that it will got anything happen on me..but not her...dont say me stupid...if u really know that when u really like someone...u will also done like that...lolx...i'm not that wei da...but i just hope that i really can done something to her...to let her smile......

she was so pretty today..because of taking class photo...she din tied up her hair...hmm...how pretty is her...lolx...i was so regret that i din aprecieat her since last time...i m so fucking idoit and blind that din even take any attention on her...haizzzzzz....the thing i can do now,is just regret!! lolx!

same as everyday,i din talk to her , and she din talk to me...how stupid m i??i dont even dare!! gerr!! so hope that she will try to talk with me...even just call me to relode for her,than it is ok...but.........=( but today,i hear that she got calling my name when talking with laushingyee o0...lolx...how crazy m i?? i can happy just because of that...haha...thanks god that giving me a lucky job..that can saw u everyday...=)

13/4/2008

i was so bored today...nothing to do...just online..online..and online...lolx...whole of my heart...i just hope that can see u soon...although i can't even talk with u...missing,missing,and continue missing...keep on think that what are you doing now?? are you also missing someone??hmm...

i was so regret...keep on think that...if that day,i din'nt tell u what that i think...maybe...i still can masage you...hax...but now,i totally cant do that anymore...=/

i feel relax now...that day,i tell ahpin all my feeling...the feeling that i keep it for 2 month ... finally,i cry...i feel that i was making something that make my friends so disapointed...all my friends was helping me hardly..and just hope that i can be happy...but,i just like a stupid...keep on find the bad way to treat myself!...ahpin say that she so sad that to watching her friends having this kind of things...i wonder that i was so fucking idiot!! why??!! why i can done this kind of thing that can let me lost one friend that so important to me??

izit it will keep continue like that??would i find a way to let us turn okay??would i let the memory and story between us keep continue prefectly??could i?? ................

9/4/2008

i din saw her for five days d...erm...did i miss her?? ya,i really miss her...haizz...even i already tell myself...i can't miss her anymore...but sorry..i break my promiss again..

u might be very sad for this few days..but i cant do anything to u...even a an wei.i also cant give...but i feel apreciat that u got phone back me after i was giving u 2 miss call...lolx..i wonder that i am a stupid big idiot! lolx...i like a mice...don't even dare to phone you also...haizz...but thanks...if not ur brave ..i think until now..we still cant talk ...even just can hear ur sound by phone..but that can make me happy until hole day d..thanks...hee

dont sad anymore...sorry for my sellfish...i hope to be happy..and the way i can happy is just when saw ur smile...so,please,be happy...

i heard heng chen said that u will be on school tomorrow...aha...should i be happy??telling true...i damn excited now...am i crazy??lolx...but i really miss u...i really hope to hear ur sound,pay attention on all ur action...hear u shout,see ur smile...lolx...

hope to saw u tomorrow ba...goodnight..=)

7/4/2008

I was so tired today...aikxz...maybe,i was not enought sleep for yest night...haizz...i like to go to school...but,can it turn to afternoon class??lolx..i more prefer afternoon class lerh...i can sleep for 8 hour but not 6!! haizz..

She was absent today again...did i missing her??i think yes...after our rest hour...then only i know that her grandma pass away by milline...i think she sure very sad now...hmm...but i just can't even do anything...=/momo is the one that know everything about her...am i jealous?? but i am the one that let them be friend...i am the one that let them know each other...haha...so lame...lolx...

i was so hoping thati can phone her..and just ask how about her...but i can't do that!! i can't even find the way or a reason to phone her!! haizz..
already 2 month...i lost her for two month already...until now aday,i still cant even find the way to good back with her..as i know that...she hate me...haizz...but it is ok...i will try my very very best...just hope that,u can forgive me one day...

ahpin them got a raptai for class item again...i was so regret that i telling them i duwan to take part...but now...i just hope that i can siao with thm...lolx...i know i was so damn! sorry ahpin ya...hmm...other than that..today i was so moody just because of melisa chew!! the kong kam girl in this world!! damn hate her! fucker!! what the fuck are she going on??are she crazy?? or are she know that she really perasan??!! omg that so damn angry after hearing she say :" i got bf d...wont posible with chian cenn eh k??" omg!! did she know that...i also duwan posible with her??? are she crazy??? although whole world human are die!! although is the pig!! i also will try to choose pig but not you k??!! walao eh!! are u crazy melisa chew?? siao po!! gerr!!

did not know that i will know this kind of girl!! lolx...going watch dou niu d...HEBE are the best!! come on...dont angry because of melisa chew!! lolx...

4/42008

Anything i can say is just happy for that day...sports day of P.C.G.H.S!!!
it was so000 wonderful that studying in that school!!! between 5 years that i have learn and facing many things in that school, this is the 1st time i feel that my school is really a perfect school that i was so lucky to going in...

Pancaragam, 24season drum.....all of them pay so much their energy..practics hard, they were giving so much for theire own school and just because to let the sports day become wonderful!!!

we shouting highly that day!! many many photo were taking by us!! friendship!! we laugh,we shout,we play,we crazy,we fun together!!! eventhough it was the last year that we can enjoy that fun...but we happy...cause we already take that happyness.sweet memory for our life at there!!! =)


eu jun,sherrine,shanhui,yeemin=) love ya...

omg!! ah cheng and michelle teo!! hahaha...thanks for making me happy..lolx

we are friends!! friends are life!! i love all of you!! long bang rockxz!! =)

no long bang , no life!!! just us that can make the world rockxzz!!! wuhu!!

school canteen...we wont forgot...when we together...even that just a short meal...=)

opps! ahpin wana piak my back side??haha...this are mylife...at secondary scl...wont even forgot...our SIAO!! hehe

wao!! naughty students?? nono...we very guai de...haha...love ya!

i wont even forgot ehat did we done together ... u all will stay in my heart...forever...forever!!!

but today,after the sorts day...when we are going gurney...i damn beh siok eu jun...haizz...i know that we are best friends,we could'nt like that...but i really feel that best friends cant even do like that...the most terible things is...ahpin pin already promiss us go gurney with us...why??!!! suddenly, all the plan change??!!! telling true!! i really angry!! i dont even know how...but i will find one day...i really will tell eujun about my feeling...sorry eu jun...i really must tell u ur fault...coz..i really love u...hmm

my sound was geting troble now...omg...i might be getig "dua am gui" d...erm erm...other than that...maybe...i think i have a heart problem...maybe...haizz...if i really get anything serious after cheaking the hold body cheak up...the things that i cant even let it go, is my family, friends, and maybe...her...telling true...i really scare now...izit i really will die??i don't know...but i hope that i really can have enough time..to play with my friends...and...talk to her...hmm

alolx...why wana talk about that??hmm...let's back to the happy that i have today!!wu hu!!hee

other than that,today is my daddy birthday o0!! i love my dad sooo000 much!!! muackxz papa!!! thanks for given me alots alots!!! =)

opps...mummy call le...i gtg to swim le...hehe...i like swim so much o0...erm...erm...although i really looks ugly when wearing swimming costium...haizz....=/

see tomorrow ya guys..tatarx...!!