SAD

there was only sadness in my life~ i miss u...and i miss u... at lat...i still miss you......................................................................................

CAN I STOP THAT??!!

regret d...
no one can help me...
can i say sorry to you???
can i call you??
can i give all the care to you??
can u dont leave me alone??

what can i do??
i just can cry???
i weather that i can hate you!
i weather that i can dont even miss you!
or maybe think about you!!
but why??!! i cant stop the action that love you??!!!

how come can i so stupid??
i cant and i already dont know how return!!
i cant stop all the missing about you!!
what did you done??
and make me crazy like that???

yvonne leong!!
stop that kayy??
i just wana try my best to love you!!
i know that i cant!!
but can u just hear about my feeling??!!

i live in suffer all along the time!
and just because my heart still have you!!
i wonder that i am a super stupid dam pig!!
why i cant do anything on it??
and i cant even help myself!!!
just give up that i can do!
why??!!!

I want let the time turn back!!!

I want let the time turn back...could i??
why can i feel so suffer this two days??
i cant even stop for thinking her!!


Just because of the missing...
i understantd whats mean by appreciate...
friendship are important...
it is too late for understanding...
sorry...sorry to myself??
sorry to the stupid action that so storborn!
i din even think all about the event!
and i just done the thing i like follow by my heart!
it is not just make me lost the friendship!
and also make myself...suffer all along the time!!

can i turn back the time??
turn to the moment that i din talk that kind of thing to u??
it maight be not like that if i din tell u my feeling!!
we will smile to each other but not stay away from each other!

i change the wrong road with my own hand!!
what still can i do??
can i return the road???
and who can help me?? ......haizz

i try to let u go!
that really take many energy from my body...
but i can throw away all about the memory between u and me!
everybody tough that i already put u down...
no one could understand what i actly want!!


really...if can...
i will give up anything ...and ,
change back all the memory between u and me!!

Sorry that, i still love you...

For many people,love is a beautiful things...
it full of colourfull and happiness...
they might hug each other when they meet...
and maybe smile...

but...for me...
love is totally dark...
the beautiful things for me...
is just what will happen in my dream.

only in the dream...
you can smile to me...
and only in the dream..
you can only pity me..and
give me a warm hug...

between the things that heppen between us this two month...
i learm many many things...
and you...maybe..already turn to a shadow
all will happen on the true world..is just darkness..and maybe cruel

the way that i can do..is just try my best..
to giving you up...
and try to let you walk away from my heart......

maybe...just memory that sweet to me...
i can only smile from there...
but,the true tell me...
i cant even touch that memory anymore.
and it just can only keep in my heart...
all along the time...

did i use on it??
live without her sound...that far away from me...
and me...that stand at there...
and cant even chase back her sound anymore...
that beautiful sound.

finally,i cry...
i cry with cant control..
did i wrong??
i let u run away beside me with my own hand...

i tell myself.,
it dosn't help...if continue wait...
it just can hurt myself and maybe you...
and giving you up...
is the only way,that good to u n me...

at last,
sorry that i still love you...

love is...complicated~haizz

why this world got such thing call~love?? i love her...but...i can't love her...what a big problem that i facing now??haizz

now adays...i keep on thinking...maybe,i really should be give up..that is not the way to continue like her...it wont have any conclusion...

god will give us something call hope...all of the hope stay in my heart...and it was just the way to support me all along the time...if it would have any choice to let me choose...telling true...i will keep continue stay beside you...even just a beside of your body but not heart...but..all of your action told me that i need to giving up...

people say that if you try hard on something...and dont even give up..maybe..one day...you will find the way and the only way u want...between this two month...i miss you deeply...all of my mind...it could not stay anything beside than you...even it was an examination...but all about you stand a big place than all of that...maybe i shoud say sorry...sorry that i really cant even put it down...every night i told myself not to miss you...and must stop to think all the memory between you and me...i told myself not to massage you...it wont have any chance on me anymore...but how??i cant even force myself...every night i cry...keep on thinking and thinking...what can i do again??you wont come back to me finally...sorry that i still love you.....

wahax...between this two month...today is the day that i most happy!!hahaha~

After i reach my class...i try to scare ai jia...opps...i fail...my leg have been knock the chair,she know that i wana scare..haizz...nevermine..next time..haha..after that,sherrine come to find me...as i know..shan hui already tell her what happen between laoshingyee and her...haizz....it is normal that sherrine will take care of the news..lolx...same like me..laoshingyee also is our good friend...hmm..hope that everything will be ok on her...and don't too sad anymore...by the way,good luck in ur exam ba laoshingyee...hmm

Continue by that..after i walk in my class..sherrine call me...so that,i just put my bed on the table behind von table...din care so much..i just walk out the class..and start chat with sherrine and ujun...we chat many many things...laoshingyee and shanhui case make us most carring...we just feel that...love is so complicated...lolx...i think thats true lah...just love each other only can together...otherwise...everything will just turn into regret and sad...haizz...shanhui actualy din have any wrong...she just feel that she din like laoshingyee anymore...so that she try to break... before that,i admit that i also is the one that agree them together...but shanhui...do u know that??like and love...really not the same?? i think...maybe love only is the way to confirm two of the couple...need together or not...haizz...

Suddenly...von come out...she talk to me that my beg was put on her table behind her...she need to put her beg...aha...tell true...i get a shock know??i din wonder that just early in the morning...she talk to me...haha...not just that...all along by today...many things happen...i mean...on my body...haha...we talk many ...is the most many between thi two month...although is just perli-ing...lolx...other than that loh...she got beat me...haha...long time ago...really..i think i also forgot what the feeling that beaten by her...but today...i get back all the feeling agains...really...really...happy!!haha..as sherrine say...jin tian hen kai xin ah...suo yi pom cha cha...hahaha!!!

But...lolx...tomorrow exam d...haizz...dunoe that i still can play with her or not leh hor?? anyway...hope that i will always happy like today...=)

At last...wish everyone of my friends...good luck on their exam and all the best!! byebye

izit true that she is really like beside me all along the time?? even just far away,but i can feel her?? lolx..lame...i tok that i can saw her today...since yest night momo tell me that she will try to talk with me today...but don't know why,i like know that she will absent today...haizz...that true...she was absent today...lolx...

this few day...i like turn a stupid person...i just waste my time as i like...haizz...and she is the one that make me like that...actualy,i ca duwan go to scl today...befor momo calling me..i already tell my mum...maybe,i will absent on friday...but after hear momo phone...lolx...i being happy...and..hopefully...

i really hope that i can saw her today...i can talk to her,smile to her...but...she just absent...i getting moody..after i having my breakfast with kaixian on canteen...i tok that i can saw her when i just reach my classroom...lolx...i m geting disapointed again...=/

other than that,iget i bad news today!!i know from kaixian that she already cant join that singing competition...haizz...why like that??i tok that i can enjoy her singing on stage??haizz...my dream disapear again!!haizz...sleepy now...talk nx time...go0d night to...her...=)