i think i should really let it go d... i can't even think about her anymore...this is the way i promiss myself... it have a very far distand between us... the way i can do,is just give her up... cause, we are really totally can't together anymore...
how should i live without thinking her?? and now...i just can missing her..for no reason...haizz...
everyday when i just open my eyes, i need to face her again...and i know that,she will very very happy if she can duwan saw me for even 1 minute... i know that i am the one that make her need to treat me like that...but the thing i hope to get from her...is just forgive....
everything goes on normal today... i din talk to her, she din talk to me...we walk our road by ourself... i don't even know why...my heart will feel very pain..when i saw her... the memory that in my brain will spread out easily...i remember all the things, all the sweet memory last year... it really make me so regret that i telling that kind of thing.... haizz...but...i cant save myself anymore....
i can talk with u if it was last year...even u talk with ahpin, i also can go beside you two..and siao with you all...but..it is over!! i was so idiot!!! lolx
Monday, March 31, 2008
31/3/2008
Saturday, March 29, 2008
30/3/2008
i go for praying my brother,sister and god granpa today...i think i reallyletit go d...the thing that i need to do now,is i should be happy all of my time! i should be loving myparents and friends!! but not her!! i should cheer up with the way i can!! hmm
until just now,when i wana view her profile, i know that she was delete me in her friendslist..i don't even know why and whats the point she wana do like taht! maybe...she needs some privacy....and she need to hide away from my viewing...i dont even know why i can fail like that! and i dont even know why i can destroy my friend in my life with my own hand!! GOD! can u help me?? for the last time maybe?? i really dont wana be like that...
i know...maybe i need to start 1st to let god help me...but whats the way?? haizz...
27/3/2008
WE take picture today in school!! i was so happy today!! wahahaha!! but...ahpin din COME!!! haizz...it like missing someone!! totally not same as P5A!! lolx...
but anyway, i would zhen xi the time we together! when we smile, we we shout, and even when we play together!! i wont even forgot!!!
25/3/2008
ya...she already give me an answer...hmm...although it was not an answer that i hope...but is ok...i also choose to be friend...maybe you very hate me now...i was to0 angry that day...so that only send you that kind of message...i'm sorry...but i hope you will know what's the point i angry...haizz...
everything is over! we must continue our life with our best...i know this few month, I am the one that make you fedup, make u upset...I am here to appologise....anything i can say is...just sorry...i think it was nothing can say between us anymore...maybe...is over of our friendship also...i know...it was my fault! i done it myself...without caring your feeling..i tell you my feeling...really...if can, i choose not to say...i will try my way to keep it in my heart forever!! but the problem is the time can't even turn back anymore!! and is time to regret whole of my life!!
the thing i must appreciate now is...i still can saw u everyday in my life...i still can see your smile, hear your sound, and even hear u shouting in class...thanks god that giving this kind of discount to me...hmm...i know i din have any choice anymore...i can't even let you go...although you already tell me the imposible between us...but how wor?? i still loving you...i know...it was so crazy to saying that...i am the one that choose to be friend...but why?? my brain still thinking about you everyday, every time , every moment??
can you tell me?? what's the power that belongs to you??? to make me so confuse ??haizz...
26/3/2008
Today, you was absent … don’t know why, I feel more relax in class…maybe, it wont make me too stress when can’t saw you… I just want to do my best when facing you… I don’t know why… but today..i miss ur sound…But anyway…the way my heart thinking,is still wana saw u everyday,although I can’t even talk with you…
We have a raptai today…haha…Lim zen pin was so fucking cute!! I love her so so so much!!! Thanks God that giving me this kind of friend!!! Because of your absent…so,u din take part in the raptai…I look very open when I was giving presentation…maybe…it is because you din’t come…I just scare that I can’t perform perfectly that day…haixz…but,I will try my very best! I promises!!
Other than that…today happen a serious case that haven happen before between me and lim yee min!! I don’t know..izit I make her angry,or….haizz…anyway…I just want to say sorry…maybe…I too fierce on u d…hmm
Sunday, March 23, 2008
i'm still waiting for her answer...
It was already one week that i waiting for her answer... Is it really so dificult that to give me an answer by sending an e-mail for me?? i dont even know what she thinking about! it make me so confuse...what can i do and what still can i do?? continue waiting for her answer?? and doing nothing??
the thing i needs is just an answer! just tell me what you want and what you trying to let my life going on!!you are the one that only can make my life be colourful or darkness!! it just only on u!! i not doing anything to force you... just i need to know whats going on! haizz
Today,i din go to school with the reason because yeemin din go! i scare about lonely in class...last time,maybe i could say when form 4,i dont even understand or dont even know what mean by lonely! but now,i know! i know what means by lonely !! its mean that one person can't even talk to her lovely person while she is just near him! since februari i tell u that i like u...after that,we din even talk properly before...if the time can return,i just hope not to tell u all about my feeling...n just keep it all in my heart and just change ur sound that always beside me.....
i'm so sorry that doing such thing to u... it not just can't talk to you anymore...and also make you maybe feel that losing one friend... i don't even know all will become like that... until now...i still can't even find the road to make it back same like last year.......
anything i can say is just..sorry~
Saturday, March 22, 2008
i'm waiting for her...just only her~
Since i get the message u send me suddenly,that feeling make me so strong...it was so happy but follow by scare...i can't even belive that it was the message from you...i think and think...continue think about that...why??why you wana do like that??what's the point?? i can't even get the answer...it make me more confuse after i saw the same message that send by momo...i totaly can't know that...why! i scold you with a message...i wonder that are you playing me...i can't even accept that you two can send me the same message by that word! i'm so angry to saw that...ya!maybe you wana let me know that,you two only was the couple that can together...you want me die heart...maybe,you wana let me give up! even i din saw that message,i already try hard to giving u up...but why??why you wana send me those message suddenly?? it let me wana know that what are you thinking all along the time!!! i don't even want to feel regret anymore!!As i know myself!! i love you deeply!! telling true...i don't even wana giving you up!! even you hate me deeply...cause,i really love you...already two days ago...i'm still waiting for ur answer...can i get the answer that i hope?? you are the one that can give me the answer...and you are the one that will know how my life will going on......
